My birthday ?

Jan 30 ?

ya.

It is my birthday.

So?

How I am?

I'm fine.

I'm not any V.I.P pun xP

Wishes?

1st,

I must get a medal for HIM !!!!!

I should get it for HIM !!!!!!!!!!

I will bring it for you !!! =D

2nd,

I want

new shirt,

new short pants,

new long jeans,

new bag,

new caps,

new shoes...

As long as it is street wear or else it is purple colour xD

just simply think it xD

3rd,

I don't know le...

maybe is want her to forget me ba....

I'm just a person hurt her...

there is no any memory for her to miss it...

forget it ba...

=D

hahaha...

To forget this stupid boy

For real,

the medal is the most important for me.

I hope to get it for him.

otherelse just I simply write on it xD

And I just hope I will have a group of friends celebrate at my house.

but I don't think it will happen so...xP

Give yourself 4 minutes,

and now is the time for you to say something to me =)

that's all.

December memorable?

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life? Tell me, how's your family?

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever

Small talk: work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why

Because the last time you saw me will still

burn in the back of your mind

You gave me roses and I left them there to die

love the way you lie part 2

On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don’t know why I’m still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you’ll always be my hero
even though you’ve lost your mind

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that’s all right because I like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that’s all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

Now there’s gravel in our voices
glass is shattered from the fight
in this tug of war, you’ll always win
even when I’m right
‘cause you feed me fables from your hand
with violent words and empty threats
and it’s sick that all these battles
are what keeps me satisfied

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that’s all right because I like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that’s all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

Emotion (?)

Emotions?

Sad?

Hurt?

Happy?

Emo?

Excited?

Despair?

Without soul?

Pain?

Acting?

Down?

Smile?

laugh?

Freaking cool?

Mixed emotions?

Yea, Mixed one xD

Just the way I am here..

Shh ~~~

how?

Really so good?

I'm so bad.

I just know those thing so useless to everyone.

Why am i learning those thing ust helping ownself

and couldn't share with others?

Why I can't even do those thing that can share to others?

Photo shooting? NO

Note? NO

Jokes? NO

Chit-chat? NO

What can i do?

No.

Nothing to share.

Despair.

Sing alone.

Grenade =')

I'm not that good =']

I understand what you feel ='D

Reply-ing =']

You are who you are.

Ng Harn Shin.

That's sincerely smile to friends,

Don't say that is not.

They will hurt.

Our memory is past.

There is a lot of sorrow inside.

But, there is also a lot of people involve.

I know.

You are not trying to evade,

but Not bothering =]

Don't need to lie yourself to forget.

Just Do It.

Forget it.

Don't need to imagine.

Everyday the one at school is me.

I'm there.

Share things with me?

Anything?

Sad things?

Emo things?

Help you on anything?

sure.

You ady mature as everyone think so.

Don't need to depends on me anymore.

Learn to do.

You can do the better.

Give up what?

your life?

Absolutely no but i know you will not.

Because I'm a play boy.

No blame on you.

You just need to forget.

That's your sincerely smile to them

because they are your friends.

I'm not yours.

but also not mine. =')

Miss me?

No, Miss him. He need that more.

Memorable?

No, Just let it disappear.

Forget it.

I know what will the boy feel

when he saw this.

so, He is the one need you more than me.

He want to take care you more than me.

Cause he know he are better =)

You're amazing in his eyes.

No!

I give up le !

No question to ask me~

No reason for you all to ask~

No more smiley~

No more angry~

I'm lost~

That's why he is better than me~

No!

Stop asking me anything !!!

Time for me to alone le !

EXTREMELY CHANGE!

Finally, I get to know what am I after break with her =)

That is no more relation between as a name call Friendship.

Actually, I had get to know this earlier =D

As long as no people welling to tell me this then i should kept it as secret...

Shhh~~

Am I making myself clear ?

YES!

Friendship? Relationship?

Relationship = a couples

Friendship = friends

After i broke with her, my friends all become hunter le =')

So, I'm the one who tying you le.

Sorry.

Finally,

I get to know.

They are more caring about you more than me.

I'm not the one.

So, we are not one. ='D

You know that's hurt.

You know that's deeply hurt.

But then,

You don't care it as usual because I'm not the one !

I understand , ok?!

I get it !

You are making yourself clear !

You don't want me to get closer to you anymore !

I understand !

Stranger ->

Normal Friends->

Good Friends->

Best Friends->

Couple->

Friends->

Good Friends ->

????????

????????

????????

What's the next ?

Stranger ??

Enemy??

3rd people??

Bad guy??

Play boy??

Who I am now in your heart?

Hurt!

Super hurt!

Hyper hurt!

Deeply hurt!

Extremely hurt!

Extremely Damn hurt!

but then,

What still can I do so?

I choose to let her go,

then I should accept the hurt?

After the hurts,

What the next?

Oh ya,

Wound will be there...

Inside my heart x')

The bleeding wound forever ?

no one will know that except me.

I trust myself.

If the hurts & wound change the happier you,

Getting a lot of happiness you.

It is worth. =')

~The end~

(Friends is need when a friend is indeed) =]

《友谊需要信任》

以前我总以为两个人在一起玩就是朋友，对于朋友，也从不抱信任之感，只感觉上一个普通的玩伴。直到那天，和小珊闹矛盾之后，我才明白友谊需要信任。

那天，我很放心地把日记本给了小珊，自认为她无法把密码破开，然而，她不知使了什么法，竟把许多解密高手都没破的密码给破了。当我接过日记本时，简直傻眼了，不知为何，心中有点乱，或许是因为她解密的速度，或许是因为Z知道了一切。可以看得出，小珊很生气。

第二天，我收到了小珊的来信，我的心里紧张到了极点，真的害怕失去小珊，这时，我似乎感到我把小珊的定义下错了。读完信后，我真的很后悔，后悔当初为何不将自己心中的烦恼告诉小珊，后悔当初不信任她，后悔根本不把她当真正的朋友。而现在，正如小珊信中说的，如果我不能信任别人，那我永远都不会得到真正的朋友。

就因为意见我藏了很久的事，我和小珊的关系一下子变僵了。那几晚，我一直在思考，如果没有小珊，我还会那么快乐吗？那真正的友谊又是怎样的呢？有时我觉得自己真的很傻，幸福就在身边，却不懂得珍惜。小珊曾很伤心地对我说：“一瞬间，我又少了一个知心的朋友。”那时的我心中简直像犯了罪一样，很想用一切来挽回我们之间的友谊。

好几晚，我失眠了，第一次感受到友谊的重要性。既然害怕别人背叛自己，自己又为何不屈信任别人呢？友谊是由信任作为基石的，不是吗？其实不仅是友谊，人与人之间都一样，需要信任。如果没有信任，哪来一幕幕感人的情景？小珊的生气使我明白了信任在友谊中的重要性。

后来，又收到了小珊的一封信，信中写道：“如果你愿意信任我的话，我们还是可以做好朋友。可是你愿意吗？”我看后，立刻感受到了之前带给小珊的伤害有多大，也下定决心一定要信任别人，特别是朋友。我不希望由于不相信，而失去了太多的东西，我需要友谊，而友谊需要信任。

现在，我和小珊的感情又回到了以前，不对，应该是比以前更好，因为我们的友谊中充满信任。

《等边三角形》之----感动分享

我们常常会感叹知己难求，

人生得一知己足矣.

其实，

真正了解自己的朋友，

通常不会将关怀表露以外，

但只要一两句话，

几个动作，

就会让你从心底感觉到温暖。

《等边三角形》

我和国正同时认识了一个女孩子，她的名字叫羽柔。

在我眼中，羽柔是这个世界上最漂亮的女孩。她笑的时候，左边脸颊上有一个浅浅的酒窝，盛满了阳光，注意令我陶醉其中。羽柔忧虑的时候，喜欢侧着头坐在角落里，久久都不说话，淡然的身影如同一道优雅的风景。

“我想，我是爱上了羽柔”这种话，我也仅仅只能在夜里想，却一直找不到机会向羽柔表白。

羽柔比我大半岁，比国正小半岁，但她从来不叫国正哥哥，却喜欢小弟小弟地叫我。她常笑着说，我们的年龄正好可以煮成一个等边三角形，这是所有构造中最坚固的，也是最持久的一种形状。听见羽柔这么说，国正只是微笑，眉宇中看不出有任何表情的变化。但对我而言，羽柔的话就是一种暗示，她在暗示自己和我之间没有任何发展的可能。

“国正。”我趁着羽柔独自去路边采花的机会，拉住国正问道：“我们是好朋友吗？”

“当然，是一辈子的朋友。”国正端正的脸上，闪过一丝惊奇的表情，随即，他用不容置疑的口气强调说，“你是我最好的朋友，谁也不能把我们分开。”

听了国正的话，我很满意地点点头，然后问道：“有一件事，我想听听你的意见。”

“说吧。”国正望了望还在采花的羽柔，转过脸来。“你喜欢她吗？”我指着羽柔，她正挺直身子，满手都是金黄色的小花，冲着我们摇摇手，如同降落在凡间的精灵，清丽脱俗。

国正没有说话，似乎考虑怎么开口，我紧张的盯着他。

“羽柔是一个非常不错的女孩子。”国正小心地说道，我的心也随之渐渐紧绷起来。

“每次看到她，我就觉得像是有一束阳光落在身上那么温暖。不过，我一直都将她当着小妹妹看待，他那么天真，活泼，机灵，我也很希望有一个这样的妹妹。”

此时。我心里那块大石头才砰然落地，原来国正不喜欢羽柔，那么，我就有机会了！

“我会对她告白。”我说道，“但我感觉羽柔更喜欢跟你在一起。”

国正摇摇头，正要开口，羽柔回来了，这件事就没有再讨论下去了。

此后，国正似乎可以为我和羽柔制造相处的机会。

约好三个人出游，常常在出发前一分钟，国正打电话来，说又要事抽不开身，临时爽约;周末的时候，国正辉分别约我和羽柔去他家吃饭，可是，主人却不在家，我和羽柔只得草草的另找地方吃饭，在相约去看电影......渐渐地，国正脱离了我们的三角形，我和羽柔走在一起。

情人节那天，我向羽柔求婚，他脸红地点点头。在我将戒指套在她手上的那一瞬间，羽柔突然说到：“其实，我曾经很喜欢国正，但他似乎不爱我，也不关心我。现在，我和你在一起了，才知道爱情是需要彼此有感觉的。”

“别这样，它是我们最好的朋友。”我一把将羽柔用在怀里，在心里暗暗决定，一定要找回国正。

"Filling" of me

Me?

I really don't know who I am from now.

My EMO is coming back.

I don't want this.

I want back the Inteyo camp "me"

I don't want being Emo anymore.

I want to be a happy and filling with a lot of smiley person.

I want to be own, I don't to EMO.

I hate this "filling" with me.

I don't want you!!

I'm panic...

4Sc4?

Am I this class?

I don't know...

Why am I being here?

Inside this class,

I'm having a lot of "Filling"s

Happy?

Seldom~

Sad?

sometimes

Emo?

Recently

Hurt?

Everyday!!!

What is this?

MIXED EMOTIONS!!!!

Everyday & everynight~

Happy for you all accompany when you all need it.

Sad for I'm just only the one who for helping you all need me for smtg.

Emo for you.

Hurt for looking you all(some frens) treating mr like this.

This is what a friend be.

After break,

I know what you all keep thinking.

I'm not that good inside you all heart.

As a playboy in you all's mind, Am I right?

To----> The Boy

Last time,

You are the one who saying so bravely...

You say I'm not caring her enough...

Now,

Prove yourself that I'm not and you are!

Don't be like a CARROT ppl!

Don't just try to LIE!

Do it as what you say.

Let me know that I'mm the only wrong and lose!

To----> another boy

Finally,

I knew you in this week.

You are so realistic.

this is how you treat a fren.

Being an actor,

Being a lot of part,

in front of me, as a brother.

behind of me, as a player .

Thanks a lot~

I cherish it.

As long as,

You don't get on my head.

I will not bother you.

To----> X

Maybe, you should believe the choices i choose.

You are happy now.

Pls stop yourself to say NO towards your mind.

I'm not trying to lie you or anyone.

You are happy,

This is not my mind.

But it is others(our frens) "filling"

They told me so.

You are more happy than last time.

For me,

That is good but not from my sincere "filling".=')

The decision I had do,

I choose to let go you,

I want you to happy, more happy than last time.

I want you to be positive, more positive as last time.

I want you to get happiness, the more as you want it.

If there is a thing happens, it might have a reason to let it happen but will not having a reason to let you explain.

If there is a thing happens, it might have a reason to let you explain with your own words when you thinking it alone.

If there is a thing happens, it might have no reason to let it happen and explain because the person is extremely sad.

You

This is what you did it to me...

As long as you don't believe me

then, pls don't ask me any question anymore.

No one love to give ppl play.

After break,

A lot things happened.

A lot ppl help you more than me...

less chat to me.

even a "Hi!" with eye contact also missing.

For me, this is a hurt from them

cause I'm not a fren in their heart anymore.

Wash brain, gossip everywhere from some of them.

Fine, this is my fate.

Accept it ~

"I'm not finding excuses to avoid you

I'm juz telling myself a lie to forget you."

I thought this should be me?

but then is ok...

For your own happiness, you should do so...

You should be with him,

as long as he dare to say I'm not take caring you as well as him...

No wonder how much I did, I'm just a little bit of him.

I knew myself.

Maybe the chance for us had chance to you and him...

As the time keep going,

He is being more near you...

No~

Should be them...

And he is the one. =')

Last time,

our promise had gone.

No more le ~

I'm not the one and the last one.

SMKE Longman reference book...

remember this?

This is the one which let me think so much.

don't say I think too much,

just ask why I'm care... =')

But there is a no in everyone heart.

Then, I should follow as long as everyone will more happy x)

If you still look me as your fren, then I' will treat you as a best fren.

If you don't want me this fren then I will just tolf you,

Stranger is the best =)