I am wrong one. =']

Who know what happen next.
Who know what in my heart.
Who know what to heal.
Who know what do i feel when i 1st read the status.
Who know what i really wan to tell.
Who know what i care deeply.
Who can help me to complete.

Everything is just come with a sudden.
Friend? A truth friend which can really hear me.
No. There is no one for me now.
Who do really accompany me when i need the most?
Don't always say you are trying to be.
When the time i want to go to your there, you say NO PLEASE.
Whatever you dun like, you hate, did you tell me?? NO
Every time, who you tell the most? Ask yourself ba.
Not only you will jealous, I'm human too pls.
The picture will cause that then how about those pic in your phone.
Haha. I do jealous yet i can take it as nothing because i noe who is the most for me.
However, you take the picture as so serious until tears. OK, i get it.
Yet, the only something i wish to say to someone, it get you to mad and lie me.
Hide it from me and told to your bestie.
En. I get it.
Give me time.
I feel i'm so stupid now.
Don't say i'm not.
Don't say i didn't hurt you. I admit i did.
Don't say i always care others most.
Don't say anything to me from now.
I know I never understand you the most.
I know what you say that day when i keep quiet in school.
I still rmb it, i still can feel the pain in my heart.
So, fuck me off if you feel to.
I will pissed myself away =]

Just let me tell out, i don't mind you to jealous.

It's only what i want to say here？ MAYBE
I never demand you anything.

I just need a msg from you and let me noe your fine & ntg.
However, every time you answer me the same things.
I hate that answer.
Did you forget the things that you learn during camp??
ATTITUDE.
this is what you should have right?
Please. Don't waste my effort that i bring you to there .
Be The One Who I Know.
And so, let yourself to be open minded but rational.
Don't disappoint me.
you never know how mad i am when the moment i din receive your msg after i sent so much.
Sometimes' I hate you too.
I admit this.
but somehow, i couldn't because i know you need me to put myself into your shoes.
It's doesn't that hard to let you forget me anymore. =]
Almost one year that we go to our own life.
See... how good you are now. =]

Your short text can make me to forget to worry you, so pls reply me every time=]
no matter how much i say, Mr.Ace still the 1st choice of you =]
Be sure yourself are still there.
I don't know what to say more. =]
To be continue....

I'm not one of them

It's time to let me know i'm not the ONE.
This two days i feel so because i get such respond for them.
I don't know what had i truly did wrong yet my heart is so pain.
I don't like this kind of feelings.
It's so bad.
I'm just start to feel everything is rejecting me. =(

28/NOV

Sometimes, i really don't know who i am at here.
Do you know what did i feel the moment you scolded me so loud?

Do you know what inside my heart?
My heart just like shrink and expand like going to burst.
It is so hurt when the moment i hear all that.
Why do you say that to me?
Am I so useless?
Am I so inability?
All in my brain now are with question mark not a full stop.
I just admit that I'm not that good as them.
I admit this.
Whatever I did from don't know when, I started feel that ALL are WRONG.
I don't even feel that my presence is a RIGHT.
I just hope that i could leave here that day, mummy.
When you say that i'm so helpless at home & shop,
did you know what are my feelings?
I'm just slept for 12 hours after two day not having any dreams and you shot me like that.
I'm just didn't wake to hang those clothes for one day.
I'm just stay at home & not going out to shop work.
So, this is what should i get?
Fine. you already said, I just accept it.

29/NOV

Heart break.
I'm absolutely a stupid idiot boy?
I admit I didn't know how to do it?
It's the 1st time kay?
It's not like you.
I'm not a fast learner I know.
But pratice make perfect.
However, I never do smtg good.
I understand that.
In your heart, I never win you.
I hate the way you scold me.
I hate the way you used to.
You never empathy .
I'm just so sad
your hair colour, I don't know.
I'm just try to help you.

My mood is max to the negative. =C
Mummy Daddy,
please let me change school.
Let me be more independence.=,]

*Trust*

Everytimes, anything happen between everyone.

trust again?
It's cause a lot problem.

To: the group of brother that always find me last time.
Between us, I don't know how much can we trust each other anymore.
Since, the day after athletic camp.
I feel rejected from you all.
I don't even know when should i appear between you all.
I just know you all will keep quiet when I came near the groups.

It's so hurt and pain.
you know feel that before too.
What do you feel if everytime you get this situation?

Rui, Sheng.
This is the end of us ?

I hope it is not but i feel that you two doesn't want me to join you two.
I feel that i'm just not brother of you two anymore.
two of you are the most friend of me when I'm in athletic.
The 1st friend of me in athletic is you, Sheng.
Now you choose to leave and i have to be facing everything alone.
You are the one who bring me in and now you left me thr.
You hate me? pls do tell me. xC
Rui, remember the day we met when form 2?
we met each and start battle dance until become same team and perform at the same stage.
How much you did in your dance and athletic??
I knew it. I appreciate it.
the moment we dancing together and satire each other high jump.
The moment I love the most.
But why,
now, we are just having distance.
It's further and further.
I just feel you dwn me as your brother anymore.

it's so hurt now.
x(

Shin,
who i am for you?

at school, you acting or truthly treat me with heart?
I doubt that. Do you know?
It doesn't let me feel good when I'm having suspect to someone.
I don't want to be a tool.
I hope to help you but not being a tool that neither here nor not.
when sms, you starting more cold to me now.
with other like Wong, him or other else.
You never forget to reply.
Did I say wrong this?

Maybe , the moment you read finish this.
you having anger now.
Maybe, I had say smtg wrong too.
Then, very sorry.
Everything I wrote is what I feel when facing you.
Everything 100% is wat i feel and let me feel so.
maybe it will lead to the end point of us.
Think about how you will feel when you facing same thing with me =']

TRUST
=C

BETRAY? DISTANCE? LIE?
I'm hurt xC