maybe it's true =')

What am I doing?

The wrong things?

Yes

The stupid one.

Whatever i did just only stupid things

What can i did?

What i did correct?

The only wrong one.

I never satisfy you.

I always just cause dance and game and let you alone.

My wrong.

I'm the wrong one.

Whatever i say just a knife that hurt you.

Yesterday is you want me to try the feeling of alone.

Thx.

I hope it will be everyday to me =')

I hope that the road is i'm the one who walk alone again...

Don't ever say you didn't

Don't ever say I didn't

Don't ever say I emo again =')

The end of friendship??

There is no more my name in this friendship list.

I'm the only stranger who should leave.

I remember how the life's I get

***

I'm the WORST one !

I'm the WRONG one in you all !!

I'm the one who DESTROY you all !!!

I'm the only who should LEAVE you all !!!!

The one who SPOIL everything of you all !!!!!

I'm the one who is always BLAMING you all !!!!!!

I'm the only one who let you all SAD, MOODY, ANGRY !!!!!!!

I'm the one who SEPERATE you all friends in other class !!!!!!!!

I'm the one who always ACCUSE you all WRONG in anythings !!!!!!!!!
I'm the one who should be HATE in this class 3A3,CAN ACCEPT ?!!!!!!!!!

Thx for your good status, Shan~

"We r always the wrong 1...."

No matter how much you all do...

you all never remember what you all say to me last time forever!!

Are there any memory in your mind?

What friendship is?

What am I between all of you?

Are there a place for me to join?

Are there a chance for me to explain?

Are there a time for me to change?

NO

Here is what I want to say...

2-5-2010

A message from W.Qi.

"After saw your facebook...Your friends did not say don't want you...

Having history project, we didn't ask you to join because you are to good with CHUAH MEI WEI them...

We are so scared that our project will loss as last year...

Althought, we don't know was who give that project...

If you still believe, then please don't hide yourself anymore...We also don't know want to talk what with you...Maybe you very hate us~

Last year class 2A3 is almost finished..."

Times for me to ask...

Does this Message you sent to me, you still remember??

Are you?

Maybe not...

But then, do you know what this message gives me?

Ift gives me happiness & smiles...

Does this message still work ??

Maybe the answer is not...

Because you all are thinking me I'm the one stranger in this FRIENDSHIP.

Maybe, you all are thinking I'm the one who betray you all...

I'm dumb to everything...

This is the first one...

Here comes the second...

4-5-2010

8 message from Shan...

1st

"Are you having something in your heart this few days??

I felt that you are not happy =="

2nd,

"If we talk to you, will you talk back to us as lst time?"

3rd,

"I really hope that we will be back as last time. Study together. Have project together."

4th,

"Then, I say the truth..I felt that you should not be so emo...Actually you had a lot of friends...The only is you felt that yourself didn't have =="

5th,

"Ok then. All are our wrongs...I just want to know...How can we be back as lasst time?"

6th,

"Are you unlike all of us?"

7th,

"Do you really don't need us anymore?"

8th

"If you don't need us anymore, it's ok...but then you have to remember we are your friends forever...Forever..."

Shan, all the message on top are lies of you or the sincere of you want to say?

Do you still remember it?

The answer is NO again, right?

Those message are not work anymore again, right?

The 8th MESSAGE is not the one that will work for now and forever.

Am I right?

All of this message...

They are my memories...

They give me memory...

How the life's of our friendship go...

But now??

The friendship is the end of us ??

I just want to know the answers...

YES or NO??

For this friendship,

Last time, i cried for it for a lots of time...

For now, I am crying to types all...

What for?

I don't want to loss anyone of Friends that I had...

But

I'm am feeling so stupid to myself.

Why am I doing those things?

Begging?

Or finding?

I don't know.

I just know,

Today(11-11-2010), I saw all of you angrying me on dancing in class...

The moment, I felt that I had did a huge wrong...Serious wrong...

All of you are staring us...Angrying us...Felt that we are annoying....

Maybe it was the truth...

Everyone felt I'm annoy also...

I saw all of you kept the uno and return back to Angel Low

I heard you all are scolding...

I know that I'm the wrong one who ask for dance...

I'm the wrong one...

3 boys go out class, one of the three back to class and took his bag angrily...

I saw it by my own.

Don't you say that it just my wrong feelings...

??3A3??

Is it the class of mine?

They are still classmates?

They are still my friends?

I don't know...

Sorry...all are just the stubborn of me...

Being the destroyer in this class.

Doing stupid in this class.

I'm the only WRONG~

If I can Back to Last time ......

If I Can Back To Last Time,

I hope that I'm the one who not destroy this class.

I felt that the present of me had destroy the happiness of this class.

I felt that I'm the one let this class pupil cry the most.

I felt that there is a lot hate me because of my style, attitude.

I'm the one who let everyone felt annoy in this year.

This class really because of me and be seperate into groups...

I'm so lousy.

There is nothing.

Just cause of me, everyone sad

Just cause of me, everyone mad

Just cause of me, everyone emo

Just cause of me, everyone hate someone.

Just cause of me,

Fault are everywhere.

If I Can Back To Last Time,

I might choose to be at another place.

The place might cause us not to meet.

Maybe the appear of me,

The sadness come more and more...

If I Can Back To Last Time,

I wan back what i had last year 2A3.

But the most I want it.

The more I lost it.

Is it what I should get?

The smile that I might get from you all...

Lost it ...

there is no more smile to me.

Why?

Why should all of you did this to me?

Is it what you all want?

appreciate friendship that i have?

yup, i did it.

But you all are not!!

You all had reject me!!

I'm not the one of the gang !!

I realise it!

You all not chatting with me.

You all not going out with me.

Even just a party.

Everytime, I just told myself.

"They just forget me suddenly, they actually din forget me."

But I noe that,

this comfort just for myself a while.

There won't be longer...

Finally,

I lose myself.

I'm emo again.

I'm mad again.

So, pls dun say I'm blaming.

I'm just cause of you all..

Sorry.

I'm just telling the truth.

If I Can Back To Last Time...

what to do?

If there is a machine to let me back to last time.

what will I do?

I choose to leave here forever.

I dont want to hear that the blame.

I dont want to see anyone sad again.

but the most wrong is me.

I change everything and destroy a lot of things

If one day,

I change school,

Hope that I'm Just never the friend of you all know anymore

And forget it =)

Im so stupid !!!

If really not hope that i watch your blog....

then dun told me that u will invite me...

i on9 everyday to wait ur invite but u din so...

wat u really wan to means?

or im not wat u reali want and nid??

juz forget about it ba....

u not reali want to invite me to read through ur blog oso....

juz Forget the promise ba...

u never rmb wat u promise....

i speechless...

Enough on ur sory...

i wont stop u anymore...

i wont control u anymore...

juz be back what u r...

im useless...

Never Get any reason

Maybe, what i should do is just change...

What i do, no ppl accept it...

What i do, just get reject...

i know myself well...

i'm just a puppet...

control control control...

maybe ba...

i just to endure all of it...

what should i do?

I should stay or leave?

Make your choice

The truth that you leave

看天边乌云一片 透明回忆下在窗前
猛然回首却是件 痛苦呻吟的宣示言
开口说~出口后 梦从此不甜
那牵著手的画面 何时又浮现在眼前
Forver不叫永远 对我来说都只是谎言
若转身就是离别 若我们早该要绝缘
是谁又断了谁 说爱你的誓言
就让烟火绚烂这夜 我剪断想你的~线

雨声 想念 那碰撞 在窗前
一不小心跌入了无底深渊
扯破 寂寞 我爱过 我很懂 都走过

花朵 凋落 这疯狂 有过
我的世界时间走不动
沉默 理由 盒子里 塞满 了难过

学会去懂 得 享受 分开后残留的温柔
却也剩这些 可以拥有
谁拥抱著我 那温柔却一直存在我心中
乌云离开了 晴朗的天空
深深 体会 那感觉 多好过
连心里也有阳光洒落
拨开 寂寞 当回忆 浮起 不想躲
笑声 快乐 我想要 带走
我的世界时间重新走
沉默 理由 盒子里 那些 不再有

深深 体会 那感觉 多好过
连心里也有阳光洒落
拨开 寂寞 当回忆 浮起 不想躲
笑声 快乐 我想要 带走
我的世界时间重新走
沉默 理由 盒子里 那些 不再有
wo~