selfishness?

Human are real. Human are truth.
Human either right or wrong.

No one knows what happen next.
Everyone have their own feelings and yea, I am.
Somehow, I refuse myself to feel that.
I don't even wanna feel that (sad, hurt and angry)
what for to do that? Like what people around me keep on reminding "neither you are happy nor not, you still have to live."
Okay. So, I try to make it myself think things positively =)

Human easily get tempered and tension when things come in a sudden and a lot.
Without doubt, i am one of them. Yet, there is no excuses to reject things that you need to finish.
Works given to you, it is your jobs.
Things for team and not for individual.
You can reject the things that I tell you.
However, think it nicely. You are the one who in-charge the subject. So, not your job?
Fine. SELFISHNESS came now.
And so, this call weakness of human.
I am tired of repeating these things to you all.
It never be the things that you all feel important to do.
So, what for to keep you all alert about these?
I live for myself, YOLO. =']
That's the only way u all can be more happy without those reminding thinggy ...
(Y)
No one love people to keep on long-winded around. It's annoying, right?
Same here. So, it never be the thing happen again to you all, okay?/ =)
I'm annoy....Thank you to you all for being so nice and endure me....
and so don't say that i'm selfish when i didn't remind anymore.......

When I Grew Up

Life is your road.
when you fall down, you'll hurt.
you gotta learn to handle it yourself heal it yourself.
Everyone is the same. That's why we growth. =)
No one stay tune in the same.
everyone go through different situation with different background.
It doesn't means who go through the most yet who learn the most.
No one will prepare things for you.
Come on. It's time to be mature and learn things yourself.
You never know how far you can go.
You never know how strong you can stay.
You never know how things come along..
Learn to face while growing.
Growth does not mean changed. Growth means learning things.
Time changed. Yet, we didn't change but growth to a next level -- mature =)
Sorry, if i'm not mature enough in all your eyes.

Who knew? =)

Okay. It's been a month that I didn't post anything here.
Well. No matter what is written here. I just wish that everything gotta be alright. =)

Things happen for reason. Things go on for something.

Hmmmm....
Read something and listened something recently.
Learned something new.
Oh yeah. Don't complain. 

Never complain to anyone else about that anymore.
So, i wrote it here.
So, i learn to look the good side of things no matter what situation i am in.

Further more, i'm not the head of the group so I will not take the decision of the whole group.
I learn to let go the position of deciding. It doesn't mean that i'm not doing things as a assistant.
I'm just leave the chance to let him handle something as a leader.
I tried the feeling before so i'll do things for class when there is a real need. Some how, I knew the assignment week is going on. Everyone will be busying like hell. No one want to get MAD like a bull. So, I just did things for class individually sometimes.
Re-called back. How I did as a leader? Hahaha...
Maybe some people will said I'm tension because I put everything on myself. Some people might said just because I didn't know how to arrange work properly.
By the way, how is he doing now?
Ganti kuliah? He settle with lecture? He called himself? He told everyone?
Count kuliah himself? Reach class earlier than others?
Handle class with care? Always use english/malay to communicate when announce smtg needed?
FINE. I DON'T MIND.
Look back to the PRO.
Yup, everyone live happily now.
Everyone relax now.
No one get angry.

No one get scold.

No one hate him.

No one will scared.
Things seperate properly? Well, for them maybe is yes. For me, nope =)
Sorry, that I can't stand on your side.
Remember, kuliah is important to everyone for sitting exam.

So, I just want to make sure that is correct always.

No one knows what happen next.
No one knows what going next.
No one knows what reaching next.
No one knows what coming next.


As usual, Happy OR Not.
You'll still needa to live.
You'll still needa pass the day.
Why don't just smile?
I should have left out the worries.
Sorry for my rudeness sometimes because i think that is unnecessary question to ask.
Sometimes, that just too common to repeating the things.
everyone here no longer KIDS anymore.
Things prepared for you all but you all keep it in hostel.
Things should have prepared individually but you all keep on asking us to prepare.
Human, wake up please. K.U n P.K.U are still human being but not made of STEEL. =)

4sss~!

2014 ---- Be a Better MAN =)

2014.
New year. New Semester for me.
No more Ketua Unit for me. I'm just a training teacher =)
Somehow, I hope to be the Leader of the PJ unit but i don't wanna take all the chances and mess myself up.
I know i wasn't that good temper to coordinate with others. I easily tense up.
So, I make myself easier life. I'll be an assistance for him.
I wasn't means that i'll never give a helping hand after this but i just getting less involve.
I hope they will learn something instead of depending on others to complete everything for them.
Yet, I hope myself will control the bad attitude to be a better man.
I hope I won't get frustrated on them anymore.
Life never easy. Life never hard. Life is mine.
I want to be the LIFE =)

You should know...

It didn't mean that i want to say bad about you but it's over limit!
hey...
Please take your responsibility as a senior.
You are elder than me but u do things like a child !
RESPECT?
shit!
I won't respect you anymore since you wanna act like a child.
You mess up the whole room with your things.
You make the whole room with your fuckin' smell
Hey...
this is hostel not your HOTEL !
Bitch please !
Can't you just stand on others way to think...
you make everything of mine with your damn smelly smell !
I'm not your maid !
I'm not here to sweep the floor for you everyday!
SELFISH !
you only think of yourself !
Everyday come back to the room and on your shit video and sitting there.
Yea. you are senior!
The one which is the laziest among the others !
Don't tell me you worked.
I've been watching you two months !
Everyday on pc with movie !
NAH!
Throwing your things everywhere !
And please dun tell me u got common sense !
You think that u bought the stupid ORANGE frangance will make the smelly smell away !
It wasn't and it make things worst kay !
SELFISH! KEDEKUT!
Don't act like a senior !
You wasn't anymore !
you did everything with your own mind !
Everyday go into the room and having that fucking situaion ! o0o
Don't think that you are clean.
you just like rubbish bin !
Don't MAD me!
I'll burst !
I'll fall sick just because you this shit people doing selfish action with your shit pet with those shit smell and shit stuff !
FUCK YOURSELF ! :@

Are you?

To be or not to be.
I'm no longer that one to be =]
you are not here to do anything.
You can't be there to choose anymore.
Possibility of you to choose or not....
you are no longer having any choices there.
I'm here to join.
but being left out.
there is no longer anything to let you stay inside.
what you needed to do is ?
LEAVE? STAY?
Because of you?
NOPE!
no one will pity of you.
I'm not
I wasn't be that.
what you need is just leave and be one =]
Being in this group?
Why suffer to be that?
why needed to be that?
out of title? out of the group?
What you need?
Why make life getting tougher and harder?
Aren't you?
why make yourself so much stuff to think of?
why make yourself so annoy?
Why make yourself to be temper?
You don't need..
FLOW... =]

Trying hard to join into them.
What is the purpose?
Being kick out @ foul out by them?
I never feel good of that.
Ignorance by people doesn't make a people feel better.
By the way, how ? =]
You never know them anymore.
REMEMBER.
When a group of people hate you, you are no longer to change their mind anymore =]
Changing a person's lens to see how you behave isn't a easy job.
It's takes a period of time to build it up, but end up within a minutes.
Sincere, truth, honest.
Brought me into nothing.

Getting red card from group of people.
One by One.
It is how

you only knEw...

This feeling is sucks.
Predicting everything will be alright but it getting worst and worst.
Why?
Why is it?
anyone please tell me why?

Hoping everything is fine.
Hoping everything is smooth.
Hoping everything is done.
Hoping everything is okay.
BUT
I'm wrong!

Wishing. Praying. Hoping.
will only
Bringing. Getting. Giving.
a  disappointed.

Come on...
You Only Live Once!
Jive yourself up.
Where are you?
Why are you here?
How is everything go?
And finally...
When will you DECIDE your choice? =']

STAY @ LEAVE?
You stay for study or stay for group?
It's tough for you to being a K.U...
You doesn't the material to lead a big group.
You doesn't mean for everything.
You are still the little & tiny one.
But you did your best.
You are here to study for your future not them.
You are here to be not to do.

You leave because of friend or because of study?
It's better to leave and feel comfortable but don't you think you are escaping?
You only need time right?
yet, you didn't know where to start.
You just wan to lay down in the middle of the field and relax.
Sorry friends.
I doesn't want you all to worry me after these.

I'm alright.
I'm fine.
I'm okay.
I'm tough.
I'm strong.
I'm real.
I'm origin.
I'm nothing.
I'm considering it again & again. :')

*heavy heart*