!!! I HATE MYSELF !!!

So,
this is my FATE?!!!
i'm just try to be happy and smile..
just then , you all become sad and sad...
how come it be?
how come i feel this?!!!
after i watch you all blog , i feel that you all are sad...
i feel dissapointed!!!!
why you all can't promise me?!!
then Why i must promise you all?!!!
Why?
who can tell me?!!
Why?
I feel that...
If i happy then you all will be sad...
If i sad then you all will be happy...
If this is truth,i think i wont step back anymore...
i would rather to be sad to let you all happy better than i happy and saw you all sad...
i hate myself !!
I hate myself because i cant let you all happy!!!
I FAILED!!
I LOSE!!
I Give up!!!!!!

W.Ching,
Sorry,i'm not suppose to be like that...
sorry at all..
If you really dont like me like this,just tell me...
i will leave you to be happy...
then,wont disturb you anymore...

that's all...