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What bring us to be this long?
What bring us to be in a friendship?
By the way,

What the situation now?
The ship is going to the shore?
The ship is going to sank?
The ship is no longer navigate ?

I didn't know what can I say to it anymore.
Yet, complicated.
I didn't know what to be and what to do.
I only know I'm like a stranger in this world now.
I can't get into the title.
I can't comment a little things.
I can't talk like a friend with some of you.

Beside love, there is still love.
She started her relationship and what I could see is...
boy as me, not that close to her BF gang will started to be ignore.
*feel that pain and hold the tears up.
I pretend to be nothing.
Instead of getting into trouble and end up the friendship.
I choose to be the most common friend who she might remember or not...
I can't comment to it as this is her love, her future.
that is no offence. I need to leave her time =]

Despite,
I should know different class will lead to different gang too.
Now I really feel that.=]
girl
You made me to feel that so much.
We doesn't worth that much to be friends.
Now, you had started to change too.
*roll....
It's only time lead it and we will never back to it?
either there is a chance =')

fades~ 

It's time to be mature =]

Maybe this title is quite weird...
However, it is the one which keep flow in my mind. =]

It's my time to blog here again.
Everytime I open it, there is sadness more than happiness as usual.
I was so stupid.
Why I choose those event for myself?
I am so regret for now.
I could beat them and get three gold medal for myself.
Why? What happen to myself?!
I lost every event i had chosen and lost my OLAHRAGAWAN !
Damn. This is what I should get for my last year in this school?
=C I can't accept it. I want myself to be a role model for my team.
I failed! I'm not a real good leader.
Why? Why everytime I will fail for anything that I had prepared for a long time?!
Why must be the success be taken away?
='C 

Friends? Strangers? Gaps? OR Wall?
What  make me so happy for these few months?
What make me so nice for this half year?
What will bring me down from the peak of happiness?? =']
Maybe, I should say I'm not that perfect at all.
Friends, I always feel so hard to join in the title of you all.
I couldn't get into what you all talking.
I felt that I will crush anything which is actually nice & good at first.
I felt there is a big gap with me.
I couldn't get with you all.
I can feel the ignorance from you all for quite a numbers.

what bring me to that?
I try to bring away the gap and get myself to be more closer to you all.
However, I can''t. I failed and failed and failed.
until now, I can really see who is real & who is not.
It's time to leave them to the real one & be the REAL one to those who really need you. =']
To earn friends, give sincere.
To earn respect, give trust.
To earn happy, give smile.
To earn trust, honest & sincere.
Never lie, Never fool & Never suspect ="]

It's time to be mature.
It's time to keep everything a side and bring myself to the peak of the mountain.
It's time to fight for my own glory.
It's time to let go.
It's time to be independent.
It's time to Make A Difference.
It's time to be my real friend? Build trust & sincere =]
That's the way !