It's time to be mature =]

Maybe this title is quite weird...
However, it is the one which keep flow in my mind. =]

It's my time to blog here again.
Everytime I open it, there is sadness more than happiness as usual.
I was so stupid.
Why I choose those event for myself?
I am so regret for now.
I could beat them and get three gold medal for myself.
Why? What happen to myself?!
I lost every event i had chosen and lost my OLAHRAGAWAN !
Damn. This is what I should get for my last year in this school?
=C I can't accept it. I want myself to be a role model for my team.
I failed! I'm not a real good leader.
Why? Why everytime I will fail for anything that I had prepared for a long time?!
Why must be the success be taken away?
='C 

Friends? Strangers? Gaps? OR Wall?
What  make me so happy for these few months?
What make me so nice for this half year?
What will bring me down from the peak of happiness?? =']
Maybe, I should say I'm not that perfect at all.
Friends, I always feel so hard to join in the title of you all.
I couldn't get into what you all talking.
I felt that I will crush anything which is actually nice & good at first.
I felt there is a big gap with me.
I couldn't get with you all.
I can feel the ignorance from you all for quite a numbers.

what bring me to that?
I try to bring away the gap and get myself to be more closer to you all.
However, I can''t. I failed and failed and failed.
until now, I can really see who is real & who is not.
It's time to leave them to the real one & be the REAL one to those who really need you. =']
To earn friends, give sincere.
To earn respect, give trust.
To earn happy, give smile.
To earn trust, honest & sincere.
Never lie, Never fool & Never suspect ="]

It's time to be mature.
It's time to keep everything a side and bring myself to the peak of the mountain.
It's time to fight for my own glory.
It's time to let go.
It's time to be independent.
It's time to Make A Difference.
It's time to be my real friend? Build trust & sincere =]
That's the way !