What's going next?

A T T I T U D E
Since

 [ A = 1, D = 4, E = 5, I = 9, T = 20, U = 21]

Then,
It is 100 %

So, where is mine?
I had it.
But where is it now?
Why am I scared ?
What am I doing?
What's wrong with it?
What going into my mind now?
What is going to come next in my life?

If you not feeling to friend with me,
just tell me, don't ever wear a mask.

If you don't feel to text with me,
just tell me, don't let me be silly.

If you don't believe me,
just tell me, i'll pay you with trust.

If you are not confidence with me,
just tell me, i'll bring you my work.

If you feel i'm stubborn,
Please compare yourself to others.

If you feel i'm silly,
Please compare yourself with your own reaction.

If you feel i'm hot temped,
Please just leave me.
Because i had been 2 years not crying out loud.
I can't bear my tension.
I don't want you to get hurt.
No one is the one for me to secret.
no one.
there is no one.
Sorry.

It is hard to build up trust on friends after you realise you had been lied once or more =]
Think back what had you done.
everything is hurt =O