You should know...

It didn't mean that i want to say bad about you but it's over limit!
hey...
Please take your responsibility as a senior.
You are elder than me but u do things like a child !
RESPECT?
shit!
I won't respect you anymore since you wanna act like a child.
You mess up the whole room with your things.
You make the whole room with your fuckin' smell
Hey...
this is hostel not your HOTEL !
Bitch please !
Can't you just stand on others way to think...
you make everything of mine with your damn smelly smell !
I'm not your maid !
I'm not here to sweep the floor for you everyday!
SELFISH !
you only think of yourself !
Everyday come back to the room and on your shit video and sitting there.
Yea. you are senior!
The one which is the laziest among the others !
Don't tell me you worked.
I've been watching you two months !
Everyday on pc with movie !
NAH!
Throwing your things everywhere !
And please dun tell me u got common sense !
You think that u bought the stupid ORANGE frangance will make the smelly smell away !
It wasn't and it make things worst kay !
SELFISH! KEDEKUT!
Don't act like a senior !
You wasn't anymore !
you did everything with your own mind !
Everyday go into the room and having that fucking situaion ! o0o
Don't think that you are clean.
you just like rubbish bin !
Don't MAD me!
I'll burst !
I'll fall sick just because you this shit people doing selfish action with your shit pet with those shit smell and shit stuff !
FUCK YOURSELF ! :@

Are you?

To be or not to be.
I'm no longer that one to be =]
you are not here to do anything.
You can't be there to choose anymore.
Possibility of you to choose or not....
you are no longer having any choices there.
I'm here to join.
but being left out.
there is no longer anything to let you stay inside.
what you needed to do is ?
LEAVE? STAY?
Because of you?
NOPE!
no one will pity of you.
I'm not
I wasn't be that.
what you need is just leave and be one =]
Being in this group?
Why suffer to be that?
why needed to be that?
out of title? out of the group?
What you need?
Why make life getting tougher and harder?
Aren't you?
why make yourself so much stuff to think of?
why make yourself so annoy?
Why make yourself to be temper?
You don't need..
FLOW... =]

Trying hard to join into them.
What is the purpose?
Being kick out @ foul out by them?
I never feel good of that.
Ignorance by people doesn't make a people feel better.
By the way, how ? =]
You never know them anymore.
REMEMBER.
When a group of people hate you, you are no longer to change their mind anymore =]
Changing a person's lens to see how you behave isn't a easy job.
It's takes a period of time to build it up, but end up within a minutes.
Sincere, truth, honest.
Brought me into nothing.

Getting red card from group of people.
One by One.
It is how

you only knEw...

This feeling is sucks.
Predicting everything will be alright but it getting worst and worst.
Why?
Why is it?
anyone please tell me why?

Hoping everything is fine.
Hoping everything is smooth.
Hoping everything is done.
Hoping everything is okay.
BUT
I'm wrong!

Wishing. Praying. Hoping.
will only
Bringing. Getting. Giving.
a  disappointed.

Come on...
You Only Live Once!
Jive yourself up.
Where are you?
Why are you here?
How is everything go?
And finally...
When will you DECIDE your choice? =']

STAY @ LEAVE?
You stay for study or stay for group?
It's tough for you to being a K.U...
You doesn't the material to lead a big group.
You doesn't mean for everything.
You are still the little & tiny one.
But you did your best.
You are here to study for your future not them.
You are here to be not to do.

You leave because of friend or because of study?
It's better to leave and feel comfortable but don't you think you are escaping?
You only need time right?
yet, you didn't know where to start.
You just wan to lay down in the middle of the field and relax.
Sorry friends.
I doesn't want you all to worry me after these.

I'm alright.
I'm fine.
I'm okay.
I'm tough.
I'm strong.
I'm real.
I'm origin.
I'm nothing.
I'm considering it again & again. :')

*heavy heart*

Decision?

Why am I here so busy?
Why am I doing all stuff for them?
Why am I completing every stuff one by one?
Why am I here to study?
Is this suitable for me?
Should I consider again and again?
Should I give up?
Should I put down everything single stuff?

I feel to study.
I feel to do every works.
I feel to finish every stuff.
I don't want to be the last one.
I don't want to be empty.
I don't want to be the useless.
I don't want to give up.

In a big group,
I don't want to give up.
I don't want to emo.
I don't want to disappoint.
I don't want to hurt anyone.
I don't want to be alone so I do my best to join you all.
I try it again, again and again.
I don't want to lose any friends.
Gather up together doesn't easy.
Breaking up can be easy.

Sorry.
I don't know which is the right decision but I should have try this once.
I'm not in this group and the group might be better.
Leaving this group can help something then i'll do it.
So, we'll prove it out.
I don't want you all to worry so I decided to leave for a while.

I didn't know what can be real.
I didn't know what can be fake.
I only feel i'm not belong to.

Sorry Ching. Sorry Michael. Sorry Chan. Sorry Ming Shen. Sorry Anna. Sorry Juccy. Sorry Michelle. Sorry if my decision is wrong.
Btw, I'm not suit.

All the best to you all okay? =']

am i noob ?

Finally,

you have started it.
you make it to be difficult...
friendship of us wasn't that strong anymore =]
you let it to be weak like a string. A simple pull will make it break!
Like how you treat me as stranger ?

not replying... look me as stranger...turn away when saw...
Well. should i be the silly one anymore? =]
texting you time by time yet you not replying although you went back.
smiling to you yet you turn away and act like stranger.
hmmm...
Time? it faded everything?
The journey of the ship reach the jetty ?
haha~!
i didn't know... let the answer hold it in your hands...
you'll never knew how close we are actually because you never knew the back of the story...=]
Hope you will concern about it ...
Take no respond into take care of ppl waiting answer...
4ss~!

and now....

2013 =]
reopen school....
day pass one by one...
i feel so empty inside my heart...
listening to them telling me who texted who to go ipoh...
asking them to go down for this and that...
n me ?
haha...
forget about it...
everything doesn't seem to be what I think it should be...
where are them?
when can we meet ?
Why?
why fate just giving me a chance and keep it back at the last minute everytime?
it is so tired when everytime having those excited feel and turn it up into dissapointed  xC!!!
telling myself agn and agn...
every thing is just ok to me...
but i didn't...
it is so tough to make it....
and soon the tears rolling inside my heart =']
sorry guys....
i'm little to you all but trust me...
i'm trying to make myself better to treat u all =')
give me some timesssss....
4sss..