你变了。
你变得不再像以前那样了。
你不再像以前那样叫我了。
不再像以前那么开朗了。
这一切，我错了吗？
是我多心吗？
是我过分管你？
是我太关心你？
是我多事？
也许，这些都是。
曾经，
我们可以比任何人都要好。
曾经，
我们可以一个话题聊一天。
曾经，
我们可以互相骂彼此。
曾经，
我们可以玩的很疯狂。
这一切，都已是过去。
直到那一天，
原来，我是最傻的。
原来，我是最笨的。
原来，我是多余的。
你不再需要我的关心。
你只需要一群你想的朋友。
你不再需要我的奖励。
你只需要一个肯定。
你不再需要我的陪伴。
你只需要自己的时间忙碌。
你不再需要我的笑话。
你只需要我不再烦你。
你不再需要我的出现。
你长大了。=']
是我太关心你。
是我太在意你。
是我太了解你。
是我太照顾你。
是时候了吗？ ='0
嗯，她长大了。她的坚强代表了很多。=']
Sorry, I gotta. I should have leave you as what you want to be.
I'm invisible starting a long time. =']
*TEARS END UP*
Thursday, May 3, 2012
me.me.me
Now, what is going on here?
actually, you'll be asking why am I getting that stress.
no doubt. exam is around the corner.
homework is like mountain here.
And I don't even finish study everything yet.
So, what the fuck that having so much stuff to bother about?!
What? What GenY camp?
camp then camp la. I know I didn't go for the activities twice.
So, that's the reason that cut off my name??
kay?! fine!!!
I'm being doubt!
I'm not that good as her !
I'm useless. I didn't know what's the effort for doing that much on camp during last year
& wasting all my time for it.
Now, I'm out of the list !
You cancel off my name!
I couldn't be that !
I'm not a real leader of TPG.
Doubt!!!!!!
I hate this !
actually, you'll be asking why am I getting that stress.
no doubt. exam is around the corner.
homework is like mountain here.
And I don't even finish study everything yet.
So, what the fuck that having so much stuff to bother about?!
What? What GenY camp?
camp then camp la. I know I didn't go for the activities twice.
So, that's the reason that cut off my name??
kay?! fine!!!
I'm being doubt!
I'm not that good as her !
I'm useless. I didn't know what's the effort for doing that much on camp during last year
& wasting all my time for it.
Now, I'm out of the list !
You cancel off my name!
I couldn't be that !
I'm not a real leader of TPG.
Doubt!!!!!!
I hate this !
you all doubt me !
doubt as much as you like!
get your own real tpg camper.
Bringing along all the rich ppl to an underprivillaged camp !
USELESS one! You didn't know how hard to earn all those money !
doubt as much as you like!
get your own real tpg camper.
Bringing along all the rich ppl to an underprivillaged camp !
USELESS one! You didn't know how hard to earn all those money !
Friday, April 20, 2012
Behind the scene.
Finally, I'm seriously out of my own mind.
I can't hold it that much anymore.
Laughing.
Joking.
Studying.
Trying to be in the gang.
Har! I'm not that brilliant actually.
I asked myself once.
Why am I in this class? Why I'm not in Sc4?
I asked myself again in that night.
I felt so tension. I'm stressed actually.
I can't hold my tears in that night.
So, I cried it out quietly alone in the night.
I can't hold it that much anymore.
Laughing.
Joking.
Studying.
Trying to be in the gang.
Har! I'm not that brilliant actually.
I asked myself once.
Why am I in this class? Why I'm not in Sc4?
I asked myself again in that night.
I felt so tension. I'm stressed actually.
I can't hold my tears in that night.
So, I cried it out quietly alone in the night.
I tried my best to study the most I could.
I was expecting mt result would be that good for me to get in to the TOP20.
however, I'm wrong.
I'm only in 35.
hahahaha... What a real sarcasm to me.
The 1st time I got my 6A among these 11 subjects.
I'm totally mad...
I'm wondering what wrong's with me.
Why are they so fantastic?
Why I just can't get the same result like them?
I knew I disappointed my parents again.
I just can't get the best in their heart.
They didn't expect to see this kind of result.
I'm not that clever compare to my sister & brother.
I was thinking...
As if i'm at Sc4 , maybe me i'm in the top10 now.
I'm mad.
please told me everything was not bad to me.
I'm trying to get into the LMS team but I lost.
I was deeply hurt with that when I knew that i'm not qualified for that.
Why?
I'm just not in the target.
ya.
So? I'm just lost in one event.
Others, I still can be leading.
Why?
Now, I'm just like nothing.
I just hoping that i could get into the game.
The best I tried, but I had lost.
hmmm?
no, no one knew all these.
It's only a secret in my heart.
No one that I could face and told out.
I hope there is but no one will be.
I never wanted one of them to knew it and sad for that except they had knew that much and asked.
The moment you being alone, you'll never what had happen =)
I was expecting mt result would be that good for me to get in to the TOP20.
however, I'm wrong.
I'm only in 35.
hahahaha... What a real sarcasm to me.
The 1st time I got my 6A among these 11 subjects.
I'm totally mad...
I'm wondering what wrong's with me.
Why are they so fantastic?
Why I just can't get the same result like them?
I knew I disappointed my parents again.
I just can't get the best in their heart.
They didn't expect to see this kind of result.
I'm not that clever compare to my sister & brother.
I was thinking...
As if i'm at Sc4 , maybe me i'm in the top10 now.
I'm mad.
please told me everything was not bad to me.
I'm trying to get into the LMS team but I lost.
I was deeply hurt with that when I knew that i'm not qualified for that.
Why?
I'm just not in the target.
ya.
So? I'm just lost in one event.
Others, I still can be leading.
Why?
Now, I'm just like nothing.
I just hoping that i could get into the game.
The best I tried, but I had lost.
hmmm?
no, no one knew all these.
It's only a secret in my heart.
No one that I could face and told out.
I hope there is but no one will be.
I never wanted one of them to knew it and sad for that except they had knew that much and asked.
The moment you being alone, you'll never what had happen =)
Friday, March 2, 2012
Be tough of what really mean.
What was the 1st hit on me when i'm really depress?
Crying in the middle of night?
Listening to music and dance?
Having athlete training?
No. I can't release them out.
Don't ask me why.
sometime, you just can't tell it out to those who are around you.
you just want them to reassure you more than worry.
you just smile for the day.
you just be happy for the day.
You just try to forget what really make more worry.
By the way,
I don't remember when was the day that i let go.
I don't remember who were they listen to me.
I don't remember what can help me.
the feeling ...
when you saw the photo.
when you heard that your friend dislike you.
when you know your out.
when you fail to get to target.
Sorry for everything, my friends.
You all never know a smile is how important.
I just know I'm dump!
Crying in the middle of night?
Listening to music and dance?
Having athlete training?
No. I can't release them out.
Don't ask me why.
sometime, you just can't tell it out to those who are around you.
you just want them to reassure you more than worry.
you just smile for the day.
you just be happy for the day.
You just try to forget what really make more worry.
By the way,
I don't remember when was the day that i let go.
I don't remember who were they listen to me.
I don't remember what can help me.
the feeling ...
when you saw the photo.
when you heard that your friend dislike you.
when you know your out.
when you fail to get to target.
Sorry for everything, my friends.
You all never know a smile is how important.
I just know I'm dump!
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
I will be the strongest !
What actually affect human being the most?
No one can conclude on this.
Everyone has it own starting point and ending point =]
So far so good.
I know this time will be the last time for me to stand on this stage.
I take so much training to get into this competition and now, there is another two get in.
So, they are going to participate with me...
yea... The reason is they are good although no training ...
The moment I heard this, I was like LOL !!!!
And I knew that I lost it my silver medal last.
Fine. It's okay !
I'll be the most shine in front of you this time.
I'll let you know who is the strongest this time, teacher!
I'm not fake! I'm the only one who should deserve this !
I'll break every single record at last time...
I mean it when i say it .
Now, I'll be there right back on my own style, own opportunity and my own hardworking !
I believe this will be the only for you to think that i'm different =D
110 hurdles
No one can conclude on this.
Everyone has it own starting point and ending point =]
So far so good.
I know this time will be the last time for me to stand on this stage.
I take so much training to get into this competition and now, there is another two get in.
So, they are going to participate with me...
yea... The reason is they are good although no training ...
The moment I heard this, I was like LOL !!!!
And I knew that I lost it my silver medal last.
Fine. It's okay !
I'll be the most shine in front of you this time.
I'll let you know who is the strongest this time, teacher!
I'm not fake! I'm the only one who should deserve this !
I'll break every single record at last time...
I mean it when i say it .
Now, I'll be there right back on my own style, own opportunity and my own hardworking !
I believe this will be the only for you to think that i'm different =D
110 hurdles
400m
1500m
javelin -- 38m
shot put -- 10m
javelin -- 38m
shot put -- 10m
long jump -- 5.4m
high jump -- 160m
I'm ready to GOld!
SPIRIT * COMMITMENT * HARDWORKING
high jump -- 160m
I'm ready to GOld!
SPIRIT * COMMITMENT * HARDWORKING
Monday, December 26, 2011
Why so complicated??
1st thing that I'm going to talk about is facilitators of GenY camp.
hmmmm...
What actually will a person feel is happy, glad & excited...
Yea, I'm so glad to be the faci of camp again =D
I'm going camp again !
yea, that's what I want...
the things that I had been waiting for 3 months alike 3 years.[ sounds like i'm old]
hmmmm...
What actually will a person feel is happy, glad & excited...
Yea, I'm so glad to be the faci of camp again =D
I'm going camp again !
yea, that's what I want...
the things that I had been waiting for 3 months alike 3 years.[ sounds like i'm old]
Camp feel is here, full of spirit.
For real, I can't wait to go until the camp site and mad with campers.
However, these 3 days let me feel happy & sad together.
I'm sad... why?
I feel that i'm being ignore by faci team.
I can't get into their title.
I can't know what they talking about.
They don't really need me?
I don't know.
I feel myself can't talk to those senior in group.
What the real reason actually?
I'm annoy?
Don't ask me. I may feel that too.
I just don't know what to do.
I'm tpg only faci now.
so, how??
what to do? I'm not that good as other.
For real, I can't wait to go until the camp site and mad with campers.
However, these 3 days let me feel happy & sad together.
I'm sad... why?
I feel that i'm being ignore by faci team.
I can't get into their title.
I can't know what they talking about.
They don't really need me?
I don't know.
I feel myself can't talk to those senior in group.
What the real reason actually?
I'm annoy?
Don't ask me. I may feel that too.
I just don't know what to do.
I'm tpg only faci now.
so, how??
what to do? I'm not that good as other.
They get a good relation to Mabel.
I just feel that I'm nearly to kick out from there.
So, who know ?
I'm just afraid of this to happen.
Just smtg more to say.(all is just my mind after i think)
P.tong _ You know what? Suddenly, I feel that you've change a lot. You change to not bother some of us. I felt that during camp. Do you know that? I still know that we Didn't talk to each other for more than 3 sentences during camp... I don't know what make me remember this so deeply in my heart. I just can't accept it. What had I did wrong actually? If i'm wrong, can you tell me?
2nd, smtg that really not that much for me but still let me feel so angry...
Boy, if you don't love her then don't tell her those sweet & love words.
Those words will hurt her and left scars with her forever.
I just feel that I'm nearly to kick out from there.
So, who know ?
I'm just afraid of this to happen.
Just smtg more to say.(all is just my mind after i think)
P.tong _ You know what? Suddenly, I feel that you've change a lot. You change to not bother some of us. I felt that during camp. Do you know that? I still know that we Didn't talk to each other for more than 3 sentences during camp... I don't know what make me remember this so deeply in my heart. I just can't accept it. What had I did wrong actually? If i'm wrong, can you tell me?
2nd, smtg that really not that much for me but still let me feel so angry...
Boy, if you don't love her then don't tell her those sweet & love words.
Those words will hurt her and left scars with her forever.
you know what? You only know you are good enough to her.
You think those things that you do out of her sight is just nobody know.
hahaha! You're wrong exactly! you just let her know too much.
What you write as your text msg sent to her, girl can feel that.
Girl sense is always that strong.
do you know what is exactly in her??
She feel that she is the 3rd person in this relationship so strong!!!!
You know why?! Cause those things that you did to her.
What she want , just your accompany, some trust.
She trust you a lot.
Sometimes, she know you lie her but what to do?!
She just don't want to tell out and get each other further so she just trust it ....
Why you never appreciate when you have?
3rd, K.yeng...
Jie, you noe what?
I don't know what reason make me to take you for so important =X
You make me to do so.
To be honest, I worry you every time.
I don't know what will happen next.
I wait your text msg everyday. What to do?
I just feel to make you happy everyday.
you know what? Remember that day after eating at stadium.
Remember what you text and say to me =]
You say that you miss me when I'm not texting you during camp.
hmmm...
You think those things that you do out of her sight is just nobody know.
hahaha! You're wrong exactly! you just let her know too much.
What you write as your text msg sent to her, girl can feel that.
Girl sense is always that strong.
do you know what is exactly in her??
She feel that she is the 3rd person in this relationship so strong!!!!
You know why?! Cause those things that you did to her.
What she want , just your accompany, some trust.
She trust you a lot.
Sometimes, she know you lie her but what to do?!
She just don't want to tell out and get each other further so she just trust it ....
Why you never appreciate when you have?
3rd, K.yeng...
Jie, you noe what?
I don't know what reason make me to take you for so important =X
You make me to do so.
To be honest, I worry you every time.
I don't know what will happen next.
I wait your text msg everyday. What to do?
I just feel to make you happy everyday.
you know what? Remember that day after eating at stadium.
Remember what you text and say to me =]
You say that you miss me when I'm not texting you during camp.
hmmm...
I'm so happy that time. I suddenly feel to go and hug you tightly & give you a kiss.
Btw, this will never happen between us although how close we are, right? hahah!
4sss <3
4th, I'm tpg ? so what?!
I knew I'm tpg! that's why I couldn't go Ipoh everytime.
I can't go for gathering. I can't meetup whenever you guys hang out.
I can't go hike with you all. I can't yum cha with you all.
And this the reason that made me to lost connection with you all??
And it make us have a long distance? =C
I just don't want all this to happen but what to do actually?
I can't do anything....
how?
I'm just so stupid sometimes. I feel so tension to everything.
I can't know what you all talking about somewhere else since i'm tpg.
I can't ask you all to talk about tpg famous places too.
I'm just duno what to talk.
Tpg and Ipoh are totally difference style.
Even though talk.
='X
tears...
5th, You noe what I mentioned there...
you will feel hurt when you started to read it.
btw, sorry.
To be honest, really sorry.
That's what I feel. I just don't want to lie.
I sincerely hope that you can accept it.
Trust me if you think it's ok.
If you doubt, just ask me =]
I just don't want you to suspect me kay? =)
Just promise me :]
Take care yourself nicely.
I'm going to buy a lot of food to put at your house for preventing tou GASTRIC HAPPEN!!!!
RAWR!!!!!
9 . '2'5''24.''1
See, I still remember =3
Vanila =P
Btw, this will never happen between us although how close we are, right? hahah!
4sss <3
4th, I'm tpg ? so what?!
I knew I'm tpg! that's why I couldn't go Ipoh everytime.
I can't go for gathering. I can't meetup whenever you guys hang out.
I can't go hike with you all. I can't yum cha with you all.
And this the reason that made me to lost connection with you all??
And it make us have a long distance? =C
I just don't want all this to happen but what to do actually?
I can't do anything....
how?
I'm just so stupid sometimes. I feel so tension to everything.
I can't know what you all talking about somewhere else since i'm tpg.
I can't ask you all to talk about tpg famous places too.
I'm just duno what to talk.
Tpg and Ipoh are totally difference style.
Even though talk.
='X
tears...
5th, You noe what I mentioned there...
you will feel hurt when you started to read it.
btw, sorry.
To be honest, really sorry.
That's what I feel. I just don't want to lie.
I sincerely hope that you can accept it.
Trust me if you think it's ok.
If you doubt, just ask me =]
I just don't want you to suspect me kay? =)
Just promise me :]
Take care yourself nicely.
I'm going to buy a lot of food to put at your house for preventing tou GASTRIC HAPPEN!!!!
RAWR!!!!!
9 . '2'5''24.''1
See, I still remember =3
Vanila =P
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