Why so complicated??

1st thing that I'm going to talk about is facilitators of GenY camp.
hmmmm...
What actually will a person feel is happy, glad & excited...
Yea, I'm so glad to be the faci of camp again =D
I'm going camp again !
yea, that's what I want...
the things that I had been waiting for 3 months alike 3 years.[ sounds like i'm old]

Camp feel is here, full of spirit.
For real, I can't wait to go until the camp site and mad with campers.
However, these 3 days let me feel happy & sad together.
I'm sad... why?
I feel that i'm being ignore by faci team.
I can't get into their title.
I can't know what they talking about.
They don't really need me?
I don't know.
I feel myself can't talk to those senior in group.
What the real reason actually?
I'm annoy?
Don't ask me. I may feel that too.
I just don't know what to do.
I'm tpg only faci now.
so, how??
what to do? I'm not that good as other.

They get a good relation to Mabel.
I just feel that I'm nearly to kick out from there.
So, who know ?
I'm just afraid of this to happen.
Just smtg more to say.(all is just my mind after i think)
P.tong _ You know what? Suddenly, I feel that you've change a lot. You change to not bother some of us. I felt that during camp. Do you know that? I still know that we Didn't talk to each other for more than 3 sentences during camp... I don't know what make me remember this so deeply in my heart. I just can't accept it. What had I did wrong actually? If i'm wrong, can you tell me?

2nd, smtg that really not that much for me but still let me feel so angry...
Boy, if you don't love her then don't tell her those sweet & love words.
Those words will hurt her and left scars with her forever.

you know what? You only know you are good enough to her.
You think those things that you do out of her sight is just nobody know.
hahaha! You're wrong exactly! you just let her know too much.
What you write as your text msg sent to her, girl can feel that.
Girl sense is always that strong.
do you know what is exactly in her??
She feel that she is the 3rd person in this relationship so strong!!!!
You know why?! Cause those things that you did to her.
What she want , just your accompany, some trust.
She trust you a lot.
Sometimes, she know you lie her but what to do?!
She just don't want to tell out and get each other further so she just trust it ....
Why you never appreciate when you have?

3rd, K.yeng...
Jie, you noe what?
I don't know what reason make me to take you for so important =X
You make me to do so.
To be honest, I worry you every time.
I don't know what will happen next.
I wait your text msg everyday. What to do?
 I just feel to make you happy everyday.
you know what? Remember that day after eating at stadium.
Remember what you text and say to me =]
You say that you miss me when I'm not texting you during camp.
hmmm...

 I'm so happy that time. I suddenly feel to go and hug you tightly & give you a kiss.
Btw, this will never happen between us although how close we are, right? hahah!
4sss <3

4th, I'm tpg ? so what?!
I knew I'm tpg! that's why I couldn't go Ipoh everytime.
I can't go for gathering. I can't meetup whenever you guys hang out.
I can't go hike with you all. I can't yum cha with you all.
And this the reason that made me to lost connection with you all??
And it make us have a long distance? =C
I just don't want all this to happen but what to do actually?
I can't do anything....
how?
I'm just so stupid sometimes. I feel so tension to everything.
I can't know what you all talking about somewhere else since i'm tpg.
I can't ask you all to talk about tpg famous places too.
I'm just duno what to talk.
Tpg and Ipoh are totally difference style.
Even though talk.
='X
tears...

5th, You noe what I mentioned there...
you will feel hurt when you started to read it.
btw, sorry.
To be honest, really sorry.
That's what I feel. I just don't want to lie.
I sincerely hope that you can accept it.
Trust me if you think it's ok.
If you doubt, just ask me =]
I just don't want you to suspect me kay? =)
Just promise me :]
Take care yourself nicely.
I'm going to buy a lot of food to put at your house for preventing tou GASTRIC HAPPEN!!!!
RAWR!!!!!
9 . '2'5''24.''1
See, I still remember =3
Vanila =P

I am wrong one. =']

Who know what happen next.
Who know what in my heart.
Who know what to heal.
Who know what do i feel when i 1st read the status.
Who know what i really wan to tell.
Who know what i care deeply.
Who can help me to complete.

Everything is just come with a sudden.
Friend? A truth friend which can really hear me.
No. There is no one for me now.
Who do really accompany me when i need the most?
Don't always say you are trying to be.
When the time i want to go to your there, you say NO PLEASE.
Whatever you dun like, you hate, did you tell me?? NO
Every time, who you tell the most? Ask yourself ba.
Not only you will jealous, I'm human too pls.
The picture will cause that then how about those pic in your phone.
Haha. I do jealous yet i can take it as nothing because i noe who is the most for me.
However, you take the picture as so serious until tears. OK, i get it.
Yet, the only something i wish to say to someone, it get you to mad and lie me.
Hide it from me and told to your bestie.
En. I get it.
Give me time.
I feel i'm so stupid now.
Don't say i'm not.
Don't say i didn't hurt you. I admit i did.
Don't say i always care others most.
Don't say anything to me from now.
I know I never understand you the most.
I know what you say that day when i keep quiet in school.
I still rmb it, i still can feel the pain in my heart.
So, fuck me off if you feel to.
I will pissed myself away =]

Just let me tell out, i don't mind you to jealous.

It's only what i want to say here？ MAYBE
I never demand you anything.

I just need a msg from you and let me noe your fine & ntg.
However, every time you answer me the same things.
I hate that answer.
Did you forget the things that you learn during camp??
ATTITUDE.
this is what you should have right?
Please. Don't waste my effort that i bring you to there .
Be The One Who I Know.
And so, let yourself to be open minded but rational.
Don't disappoint me.
you never know how mad i am when the moment i din receive your msg after i sent so much.
Sometimes' I hate you too.
I admit this.
but somehow, i couldn't because i know you need me to put myself into your shoes.
It's doesn't that hard to let you forget me anymore. =]
Almost one year that we go to our own life.
See... how good you are now. =]

Your short text can make me to forget to worry you, so pls reply me every time=]
no matter how much i say, Mr.Ace still the 1st choice of you =]
Be sure yourself are still there.
I don't know what to say more. =]
To be continue....

I'm not one of them

It's time to let me know i'm not the ONE.
This two days i feel so because i get such respond for them.
I don't know what had i truly did wrong yet my heart is so pain.
I don't like this kind of feelings.
It's so bad.
I'm just start to feel everything is rejecting me. =(

28/NOV

Sometimes, i really don't know who i am at here.
Do you know what did i feel the moment you scolded me so loud?

Do you know what inside my heart?
My heart just like shrink and expand like going to burst.
It is so hurt when the moment i hear all that.
Why do you say that to me?
Am I so useless?
Am I so inability?
All in my brain now are with question mark not a full stop.
I just admit that I'm not that good as them.
I admit this.
Whatever I did from don't know when, I started feel that ALL are WRONG.
I don't even feel that my presence is a RIGHT.
I just hope that i could leave here that day, mummy.
When you say that i'm so helpless at home & shop,
did you know what are my feelings?
I'm just slept for 12 hours after two day not having any dreams and you shot me like that.
I'm just didn't wake to hang those clothes for one day.
I'm just stay at home & not going out to shop work.
So, this is what should i get?
Fine. you already said, I just accept it.

29/NOV

Heart break.
I'm absolutely a stupid idiot boy?
I admit I didn't know how to do it?
It's the 1st time kay?
It's not like you.
I'm not a fast learner I know.
But pratice make perfect.
However, I never do smtg good.
I understand that.
In your heart, I never win you.
I hate the way you scold me.
I hate the way you used to.
You never empathy .
I'm just so sad
your hair colour, I don't know.
I'm just try to help you.

My mood is max to the negative. =C
Mummy Daddy,
please let me change school.
Let me be more independence.=,]

*Trust*

Everytimes, anything happen between everyone.

trust again?
It's cause a lot problem.

To: the group of brother that always find me last time.
Between us, I don't know how much can we trust each other anymore.
Since, the day after athletic camp.
I feel rejected from you all.
I don't even know when should i appear between you all.
I just know you all will keep quiet when I came near the groups.

It's so hurt and pain.
you know feel that before too.
What do you feel if everytime you get this situation?

Rui, Sheng.
This is the end of us ?

I hope it is not but i feel that you two doesn't want me to join you two.
I feel that i'm just not brother of you two anymore.
two of you are the most friend of me when I'm in athletic.
The 1st friend of me in athletic is you, Sheng.
Now you choose to leave and i have to be facing everything alone.
You are the one who bring me in and now you left me thr.
You hate me? pls do tell me. xC
Rui, remember the day we met when form 2?
we met each and start battle dance until become same team and perform at the same stage.
How much you did in your dance and athletic??
I knew it. I appreciate it.
the moment we dancing together and satire each other high jump.
The moment I love the most.
But why,
now, we are just having distance.
It's further and further.
I just feel you dwn me as your brother anymore.

it's so hurt now.
x(

Shin,
who i am for you?

at school, you acting or truthly treat me with heart?
I doubt that. Do you know?
It doesn't let me feel good when I'm having suspect to someone.
I don't want to be a tool.
I hope to help you but not being a tool that neither here nor not.
when sms, you starting more cold to me now.
with other like Wong, him or other else.
You never forget to reply.
Did I say wrong this?

Maybe , the moment you read finish this.
you having anger now.
Maybe, I had say smtg wrong too.
Then, very sorry.
Everything I wrote is what I feel when facing you.
Everything 100% is wat i feel and let me feel so.
maybe it will lead to the end point of us.
Think about how you will feel when you facing same thing with me =']

TRUST
=C

BETRAY? DISTANCE? LIE?
I'm hurt xC

专心恋爱

我精神饱满 有一点紧张

你特别穿上我送的衬衫

为何你还在左顾右盼

话还来不及说完就遗忘

走在大街上 紧抓你手掌

竟然走散了 自己到处晃

电影才刚开场你说想

我陪你打电玩

我给的爱 比电影还精彩

你要好好善待 仔细听每句对白

我的爱 不是一个意外

你要随身携带 你不要就拿回来

我给的爱 比富翁还慷慨

请挥霍得痛快 把幸福都买回来

我的爱 只为你而存在

你别不理不睬给我 专心的恋爱

我会很勇敢 也会很心软

身骑白马的公主 偶尔会落难

如果你敢趁机偷懒

幸福不及格就给你好看

夜半的星光 我电话拜访

睡不着要你 哄我入梦乡

顺道明天约好吃饭

结果空等到傍晚

别再走开。。。

I'm trying to tell everyone I'm growth =]

Actually,
this few weeks I'm trying to let myself control every situation.
I don't mean to be rude to anyone.

I'm just trying to let it go every thing as usual.

To let everyone believe me,

I know i had to be better than last.

I try to endure everything that I can't endure.

Actually,

It seems like acting, right?

yuppy~ It is.

But,

attitude come 1st.

I have to change myself to be strong.

No one know how much you do when you trying to growth.

No one know how much had gone when you trying to pretend.

Endure can be a such good things.

but is has limit.

By the way,

letting go, it help me to release all my wound.

I cry to heal my wound.

How much tears in this month.

Not more than 4 times, I cry.

hahaha~

Actually, maybe I can say I'm stupid.

I'm not that good for her but he is that best for her xD

Don't know...She looked so happy & feel joy everyday.

As long as she not suffer as we together last time then it's okay for her in everything x)

Oh ya~

Girl, as you know every human being will drink vinegar.

So, just don't treat me as good as you wish to.

It may occurs a lot of impossible things to be possible.

Everyone got feelings and the other reason is I'm your X before.

So, just let your wall build back x')

Next, next,next!! xD

To growth,

how much i done??

Don't know~

How much my friends know??

No at all +_+

Nothing special for them, that's just my life.

Maybe,

I should let myself to lead xD

Time to study hard for the coming test.

Time to beat down you all.

Time to shine my result out now. xD

Hope the "F"eilou won't find me ba xP

To growth, learn to forgive xD

a beautiful mess =)

You've got the best of both worlds

You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,

And lift him back up again

You are strong but you're needy,

Humble but you're greedy

And based on your body language,

And shoddy cursive I've been reading

Your style is quite selective,

Though your mind is rather reckless

Well I guess it just suggests

That this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is

It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write

Kind of turn themselves into knives

And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction

But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear

'Cause here we are, here we are

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/jason_mraz/a_beautiful_mess.html ]

Although you were biased I love your advice

Your comebacks they're quick

And probably have to do with your insecurities

There's no shame in being crazy,

Depending on how you take these

Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess this is

It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say

Kind of turn themselves into blades

And kind and courteous is a life I've heard

But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear

Cause here we are, Here we are

Here we are [x7]

We're still here

What a beautiful mess this is

It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

Through timeless words, and priceless pictures

We'll fly like birds, out of this earth

And times they turn, and hearts disfigure

But that's no concern when we're wounded together

And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts

But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it.

Time for me wake up =)

"this night

i sit by myself

think a lot of thing

i dont know all my decision are right or wrong

i dont want to hurt anyone heart"

This how I know everything.

I understand what you really need.

You need a boy to accompany you.

He is better than me.

This is better then me, right?

It wasn't that bad.

It just pretending I'm a loser =)

I don't know how to appreciate it.

It's okay.

She get her own life,

she is happy.

That is enough for me.

I don't really mind who she with actually.

That is her choice.

She think she is right.

Then, that is. =)

"i dont know the reason why

i still feel hurt when he talk those thing to me

i still feel extreme happy when i chat with him

Sorry . . i just dont know how to forget"

This is not meaning a person.

There are two boys involve.

the hurt one maybe is me,

the another one is shee =)

It's doesn't matter.

She ady forget everything when he is accompanying her.

That's her medicine.

He can change tuition to acc her.

That's what they are.

She is happy,

so I'm okay. x)

指望

怕不怕被拒绝

怕不怕被省略

你怕不怕被沦落在宿命中妥协

当真爱宣告从缺

骄傲的玫瑰正一片一片枯萎

尽管你抱歉,忏悔

真心一旦坠跌就不能飞

别指望我谅解

别指望我体会

爱不是点头就能挽回

快乐或伤悲没什么分别

心碎到终点会迎刃而解

别指望我谅解

别指望我体会

爱不是注定要填你的缺

太多的是非

来不及杜绝

更不想依恋这残缺的美

残缺的迂回

x') =')

快乐或伤悲没有什么分别

Sincere before believe? OR Lie is lie ? ='D

On this day, God wants you to know

"that there are many truths,

and they all point to one source - God.

Do not spend energy arguing whose truth is righter,

just like all life springs forth from one source,

so are all truths but a reflection of God.

Accept another truth as another way of loving God."

Words?

The words?

The words you say to me?

Do you remember the words you say to me?

Do you really remember what the words you say to me?

Do you really still remember what are the words you say it to me as you told me that sincere than you're heart?

The words are easy to say but hardly to do it.

Am I right?

How could it be?

That should ask yourself one more time sincere =')

That what you told me once ='D

"If you ever love somebody put your hands up!"(JUST A DREAM)

There is always more than one choice...

That the only thing I Know =)

The boy, here the chance to take care her...

cherish it... =')

To be continue.......

FLYING WITHOUT WINGS

Everybody’s looking for that something

One thing that makes it all complete

You find it in the strangers places

Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the faces of their children

Some find it in their lovers eyes

Who can deny the joy it brings

When you find that special thing

You’re flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning

Some in their solitary lives

You find it in the words of others

A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You find it in the deepest friendships

The kind you cherish all your life

And when you know how much that means

You’ve found that special thing

You’re flying without wings

So impossible as it may seem

You’ve got to fight for every dream

’Cause who’s to know

Which one you let go

Would have made you complete

Well for me it’s waking up beside you

To watch the sunrise on your face

To know that I can say I love you

At any given time or place

It’s little things that only I know

Those are the things that make you mine

Where should i be? =')

Congratz~

You're in a relationship...

Finally,

You accept x)

You get what you need actually...

you have your right to accept...

You're right =)

you get boy and boy to near now...

Your more attract than last time,

boys being crazy to you.

What should I do?

Take chance to back?

How should I?

Try to get back now?

Don't know ..

What should be now?

smile?

tears?

angry?

quiet?

There still chances .

but there is not for me now...

How much reason give me to back to you...

ten? hundred?thousand?million?billion?

I think there is more than that but

I don't even heard that word from you.

I never know why.

I'm kinda lost from here?

I'm kinda smile everyday?

there is always two choices.

I don't know where i am.

Where should I be?

I'm going down, down down x'D

haha...

They always the best fren for you ...

Close up my eyes,

10.07

you never look me as a fren as you say.

Are you? =']

That is HAPPY?

That happy is happy?

Or

That just a cover?

Maybe I'm wrong on telling out again ='）

No choice.

I should do what am I now.

No matter that's hurt or nothing,

I have to remain.

As long as she having boy chase,

I can't go in her world anymore =)

Y.H , Wyn...Keep it up.

I don't need explain.

That's your future.

Your life.

Your happiness. =)

Just go on your way.

M.A.D

Who care ?!

I am human-being too.

what should have,

I have it.

Emotion.

Attitude.

Here is the title.

"Who care?!"

What am I trying to tell?

Know it?

that's good.

Yup.

I'm not that good.

Who care?!

I'm trying to change myself.

who care?!

I'm trying to be more caring.

Who care?!

I'm trying to get you believe me when we are in a relationship.

Who care?!

I'm trying to be more tough enough when I'm letting go you the 2nd time last year.

Who care?!

I'm trying to smile to everyone but

Who care?!

This what reaction get from my friends around =')

Who care?!

I'm not the only one x')

Girl,

Now I am going to tell you smtg.

The time we together are memorable.

The time we together are sweet.

The time we together are happy.

The time we together are pretty awesome.

BUT

Do you know what hurt us the most?

between us,

there is less of TRUST.

We can't trust each other.

We can endure each other.

I'm hot-tempeted, you're missy.

We are in not same world?

I duno.

Everytime, we quarrel.

I ask myself.

What I did wrong again?

I just can tell myself:

"Wei, you think too much again."

Yes, I'm thinking that much everytime.

At last,

until the day of the end.

Between us,

TRUST disappear.

Everyone will think that SHE is the 3rd so i leave you.

But they don't know there is a 2nd HE in between.

Girl, sorry.

HE should be a secret for you.

I just can tell you.

HE is around us.

HE say HE will take care you more than me.

HE will be the best for you.

After the end of us,

Who care who I am without her.

Actually,

I know it.

After this end,

Your friend will no longer look me as friend.

I understand but how am I going to react?

I smile to them but what I get?

Girl, I know you know what I mean =')

I'm everyday happy?

Do you think so?

I'm happy because SHE is accompanying me as your blog written?

Do you think that's the truth?

Girl,

Your heart is with you.

You know what you need it.

You understand which boy you need now.

You know who I mean too.

I don't wanna to hurt you more.

I don't want you to tears.

lastly,

Girl sorry that I love you.

Now,

It's time for me to let go you.

There is nothing memorable between us as you say once.

You understand too.

The secret can be secret or the secret of secret =')

that's all I want you to know ='D

Be back yourself~

HE or the one is waiting for you :'D

Thanks, F.O.C subject, kaunselling & disiplin teacher =')

Thanks a lot Yuen Si teacher~

Finally,

I'm wake.

What Yuen Si told me is correct =D

She is no longer mine and I'm no longer her

So, every boy near her

Just me.

i'm doing stupid. I'm the stupid one who keep think about her~

I'm silly ='D

She already leave, I'm still stay ?

ya, last time

Now? No, I''m awake. She is no longer want me at all althought we are friend.

She is having more friend than me,

I'm not the only friend...

Less me, this friend is not a wrong but a right decision xD

hahaha~

Anyway,

Yuen Si teacher, Thank you...

Thanks for your help and scold ~

Now,

I AM AWAKE !

I'm not the stupid !

4SSSSSSS!!!!

藏起来~~

把你眼中的尘埃 落向大海

旋转木马的小孩 摇摇摆摆 要离开

掌声喝采 祝你一路沿途愉快 带着幸福回来

有人相爱 有人夜里开车看海 天亮了就是未来

如果重来

把心藏起来 把梦藏起来 把你藏起来 把爱藏起来

把笑容藏起来 把泪藏起来 说bye bye

一切应该是安排 不是意外(没有意外)

过去现在 穿越整座城市醒来 没有人记得伤害

我们相爱 最后又分开 一个人的海

一片落叶能够走到多远未来

把心藏起来 把梦藏起来 把你藏起来 我们说bye bye

把笑容藏起来 把泪藏起来 说bye bye

grenade

Easy come Easy go
That's just how you live oh
Take take take it all
But you never give,
Should of known you were trouble
From the first kiss had your eyes wide open,
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash,
You tossed it in the trash, you did.

To give me all your love is all I ever asked cause
What you don't understand,
Is id catch a grenade for ya.
Throw my hand on the blade for ya,
Id jump in front of a train for ya.
You know I'd do anything for ya.
Ohhh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain.
Yes I would die for ya baby,
But you won't do the same.

Nooooo

Black, black, black and blue
Beat me till I'm am numb tell the devil I said hey when you get back to where you're from.
Bad women bad women
That's just what you are yeah
You smile in my face than rip the breaks out my car.
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the

My birthday ?

Jan 30 ?

ya.

It is my birthday.

So?

How I am?

I'm fine.

I'm not any V.I.P pun xP

Wishes?

1st,

I must get a medal for HIM !!!!!

I should get it for HIM !!!!!!!!!!

I will bring it for you !!! =D

2nd,

I want

new shirt,

new short pants,

new long jeans,

new bag,

new caps,

new shoes...

As long as it is street wear or else it is purple colour xD

just simply think it xD

3rd,

I don't know le...

maybe is want her to forget me ba....

I'm just a person hurt her...

there is no any memory for her to miss it...

forget it ba...

=D

hahaha...

To forget this stupid boy

For real,

the medal is the most important for me.

I hope to get it for him.

otherelse just I simply write on it xD

And I just hope I will have a group of friends celebrate at my house.

but I don't think it will happen so...xP

Give yourself 4 minutes,

and now is the time for you to say something to me =)

that's all.

December memorable?

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life? Tell me, how's your family?

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever

Small talk: work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why

Because the last time you saw me will still

burn in the back of your mind

You gave me roses and I left them there to die

love the way you lie part 2

On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don’t know why I’m still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you’ll always be my hero
even though you’ve lost your mind

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that’s all right because I like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that’s all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

Now there’s gravel in our voices
glass is shattered from the fight
in this tug of war, you’ll always win
even when I’m right
‘cause you feed me fables from your hand
with violent words and empty threats
and it’s sick that all these battles
are what keeps me satisfied

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that’s all right because I like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that’s all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

Emotion (?)

Emotions?

Sad?

Hurt?

Happy?

Emo?

Excited?

Despair?

Without soul?

Pain?

Acting?

Down?

Smile?

laugh?

Freaking cool?

Mixed emotions?

Yea, Mixed one xD

Just the way I am here..

Shh ~~~

how?

Really so good?

I'm so bad.

I just know those thing so useless to everyone.

Why am i learning those thing ust helping ownself

and couldn't share with others?

Why I can't even do those thing that can share to others?

Photo shooting? NO

Note? NO

Jokes? NO

Chit-chat? NO

What can i do?

No.

Nothing to share.

Despair.

Sing alone.

Grenade =')

I'm not that good =']

I understand what you feel ='D

Reply-ing =']

You are who you are.

Ng Harn Shin.

That's sincerely smile to friends,

Don't say that is not.

They will hurt.

Our memory is past.

There is a lot of sorrow inside.

But, there is also a lot of people involve.

I know.

You are not trying to evade,

but Not bothering =]

Don't need to lie yourself to forget.

Just Do It.

Forget it.

Don't need to imagine.

Everyday the one at school is me.

I'm there.

Share things with me?

Anything?

Sad things?

Emo things?

Help you on anything?

sure.

You ady mature as everyone think so.

Don't need to depends on me anymore.

Learn to do.

You can do the better.

Give up what?

your life?

Absolutely no but i know you will not.

Because I'm a play boy.

No blame on you.

You just need to forget.

That's your sincerely smile to them

because they are your friends.

I'm not yours.

but also not mine. =')

Miss me?

No, Miss him. He need that more.

Memorable?

No, Just let it disappear.

Forget it.

I know what will the boy feel

when he saw this.

so, He is the one need you more than me.

He want to take care you more than me.

Cause he know he are better =)

You're amazing in his eyes.

No!

I give up le !

No question to ask me~

No reason for you all to ask~

No more smiley~

No more angry~

I'm lost~

That's why he is better than me~

No!

Stop asking me anything !!!

Time for me to alone le !

EXTREMELY CHANGE!

Finally, I get to know what am I after break with her =)

That is no more relation between as a name call Friendship.

Actually, I had get to know this earlier =D

As long as no people welling to tell me this then i should kept it as secret...

Shhh~~

Am I making myself clear ?

YES!

Friendship? Relationship?

Relationship = a couples

Friendship = friends

After i broke with her, my friends all become hunter le =')

So, I'm the one who tying you le.

Sorry.

Finally,

I get to know.

They are more caring about you more than me.

I'm not the one.

So, we are not one. ='D

You know that's hurt.

You know that's deeply hurt.

But then,

You don't care it as usual because I'm not the one !

I understand , ok?!

I get it !

You are making yourself clear !

You don't want me to get closer to you anymore !

I understand !

Stranger ->

Normal Friends->

Good Friends->

Best Friends->

Couple->

Friends->

Good Friends ->

????????

????????

????????

What's the next ?

Stranger ??

Enemy??

3rd people??

Bad guy??

Play boy??

Who I am now in your heart?

Hurt!

Super hurt!

Hyper hurt!

Deeply hurt!

Extremely hurt!

Extremely Damn hurt!

but then,

What still can I do so?

I choose to let her go,

then I should accept the hurt?

After the hurts,

What the next?

Oh ya,

Wound will be there...

Inside my heart x')

The bleeding wound forever ?

no one will know that except me.

I trust myself.

If the hurts & wound change the happier you,

Getting a lot of happiness you.

It is worth. =')

~The end~

(Friends is need when a friend is indeed) =]

《友谊需要信任》

以前我总以为两个人在一起玩就是朋友，对于朋友，也从不抱信任之感，只感觉上一个普通的玩伴。直到那天，和小珊闹矛盾之后，我才明白友谊需要信任。

那天，我很放心地把日记本给了小珊，自认为她无法把密码破开，然而，她不知使了什么法，竟把许多解密高手都没破的密码给破了。当我接过日记本时，简直傻眼了，不知为何，心中有点乱，或许是因为她解密的速度，或许是因为Z知道了一切。可以看得出，小珊很生气。

第二天，我收到了小珊的来信，我的心里紧张到了极点，真的害怕失去小珊，这时，我似乎感到我把小珊的定义下错了。读完信后，我真的很后悔，后悔当初为何不将自己心中的烦恼告诉小珊，后悔当初不信任她，后悔根本不把她当真正的朋友。而现在，正如小珊信中说的，如果我不能信任别人，那我永远都不会得到真正的朋友。

就因为意见我藏了很久的事，我和小珊的关系一下子变僵了。那几晚，我一直在思考，如果没有小珊，我还会那么快乐吗？那真正的友谊又是怎样的呢？有时我觉得自己真的很傻，幸福就在身边，却不懂得珍惜。小珊曾很伤心地对我说：“一瞬间，我又少了一个知心的朋友。”那时的我心中简直像犯了罪一样，很想用一切来挽回我们之间的友谊。

好几晚，我失眠了，第一次感受到友谊的重要性。既然害怕别人背叛自己，自己又为何不屈信任别人呢？友谊是由信任作为基石的，不是吗？其实不仅是友谊，人与人之间都一样，需要信任。如果没有信任，哪来一幕幕感人的情景？小珊的生气使我明白了信任在友谊中的重要性。

后来，又收到了小珊的一封信，信中写道：“如果你愿意信任我的话，我们还是可以做好朋友。可是你愿意吗？”我看后，立刻感受到了之前带给小珊的伤害有多大，也下定决心一定要信任别人，特别是朋友。我不希望由于不相信，而失去了太多的东西，我需要友谊，而友谊需要信任。

现在，我和小珊的感情又回到了以前，不对，应该是比以前更好，因为我们的友谊中充满信任。

《等边三角形》之----感动分享

我们常常会感叹知己难求，

人生得一知己足矣.

其实，

真正了解自己的朋友，

通常不会将关怀表露以外，

但只要一两句话，

几个动作，

就会让你从心底感觉到温暖。

《等边三角形》

我和国正同时认识了一个女孩子，她的名字叫羽柔。

在我眼中，羽柔是这个世界上最漂亮的女孩。她笑的时候，左边脸颊上有一个浅浅的酒窝，盛满了阳光，注意令我陶醉其中。羽柔忧虑的时候，喜欢侧着头坐在角落里，久久都不说话，淡然的身影如同一道优雅的风景。

“我想，我是爱上了羽柔”这种话，我也仅仅只能在夜里想，却一直找不到机会向羽柔表白。

羽柔比我大半岁，比国正小半岁，但她从来不叫国正哥哥，却喜欢小弟小弟地叫我。她常笑着说，我们的年龄正好可以煮成一个等边三角形，这是所有构造中最坚固的，也是最持久的一种形状。听见羽柔这么说，国正只是微笑，眉宇中看不出有任何表情的变化。但对我而言，羽柔的话就是一种暗示，她在暗示自己和我之间没有任何发展的可能。

“国正。”我趁着羽柔独自去路边采花的机会，拉住国正问道：“我们是好朋友吗？”

“当然，是一辈子的朋友。”国正端正的脸上，闪过一丝惊奇的表情，随即，他用不容置疑的口气强调说，“你是我最好的朋友，谁也不能把我们分开。”

听了国正的话，我很满意地点点头，然后问道：“有一件事，我想听听你的意见。”

“说吧。”国正望了望还在采花的羽柔，转过脸来。“你喜欢她吗？”我指着羽柔，她正挺直身子，满手都是金黄色的小花，冲着我们摇摇手，如同降落在凡间的精灵，清丽脱俗。

国正没有说话，似乎考虑怎么开口，我紧张的盯着他。

“羽柔是一个非常不错的女孩子。”国正小心地说道，我的心也随之渐渐紧绷起来。

“每次看到她，我就觉得像是有一束阳光落在身上那么温暖。不过，我一直都将她当着小妹妹看待，他那么天真，活泼，机灵，我也很希望有一个这样的妹妹。”

此时。我心里那块大石头才砰然落地，原来国正不喜欢羽柔，那么，我就有机会了！

“我会对她告白。”我说道，“但我感觉羽柔更喜欢跟你在一起。”

国正摇摇头，正要开口，羽柔回来了，这件事就没有再讨论下去了。

此后，国正似乎可以为我和羽柔制造相处的机会。

约好三个人出游，常常在出发前一分钟，国正打电话来，说又要事抽不开身，临时爽约;周末的时候，国正辉分别约我和羽柔去他家吃饭，可是，主人却不在家，我和羽柔只得草草的另找地方吃饭，在相约去看电影......渐渐地，国正脱离了我们的三角形，我和羽柔走在一起。

情人节那天，我向羽柔求婚，他脸红地点点头。在我将戒指套在她手上的那一瞬间，羽柔突然说到：“其实，我曾经很喜欢国正，但他似乎不爱我，也不关心我。现在，我和你在一起了，才知道爱情是需要彼此有感觉的。”

“别这样，它是我们最好的朋友。”我一把将羽柔用在怀里，在心里暗暗决定，一定要找回国正。

"Filling" of me

Me?

I really don't know who I am from now.

My EMO is coming back.

I don't want this.

I want back the Inteyo camp "me"

I don't want being Emo anymore.

I want to be a happy and filling with a lot of smiley person.

I want to be own, I don't to EMO.

I hate this "filling" with me.

I don't want you!!

I'm panic...

4Sc4?

Am I this class?

I don't know...

Why am I being here?

Inside this class,

I'm having a lot of "Filling"s

Happy?

Seldom~

Sad?

sometimes

Emo?

Recently

Hurt?

Everyday!!!

What is this?

MIXED EMOTIONS!!!!

Everyday & everynight~

Happy for you all accompany when you all need it.

Sad for I'm just only the one who for helping you all need me for smtg.

Emo for you.

Hurt for looking you all(some frens) treating mr like this.

This is what a friend be.

After break,

I know what you all keep thinking.

I'm not that good inside you all heart.

As a playboy in you all's mind, Am I right?

To----> The Boy

Last time,

You are the one who saying so bravely...

You say I'm not caring her enough...

Now,

Prove yourself that I'm not and you are!

Don't be like a CARROT ppl!

Don't just try to LIE!

Do it as what you say.

Let me know that I'mm the only wrong and lose!

To----> another boy

Finally,

I knew you in this week.

You are so realistic.

this is how you treat a fren.

Being an actor,

Being a lot of part,

in front of me, as a brother.

behind of me, as a player .

Thanks a lot~

I cherish it.

As long as,

You don't get on my head.

I will not bother you.

To----> X

Maybe, you should believe the choices i choose.

You are happy now.

Pls stop yourself to say NO towards your mind.

I'm not trying to lie you or anyone.

You are happy,

This is not my mind.

But it is others(our frens) "filling"

They told me so.

You are more happy than last time.

For me,

That is good but not from my sincere "filling".=')

The decision I had do,

I choose to let go you,

I want you to happy, more happy than last time.

I want you to be positive, more positive as last time.

I want you to get happiness, the more as you want it.

If there is a thing happens, it might have a reason to let it happen but will not having a reason to let you explain.

If there is a thing happens, it might have a reason to let you explain with your own words when you thinking it alone.

If there is a thing happens, it might have no reason to let it happen and explain because the person is extremely sad.

You

This is what you did it to me...

As long as you don't believe me

then, pls don't ask me any question anymore.

No one love to give ppl play.

After break,

A lot things happened.

A lot ppl help you more than me...

less chat to me.

even a "Hi!" with eye contact also missing.

For me, this is a hurt from them

cause I'm not a fren in their heart anymore.

Wash brain, gossip everywhere from some of them.

Fine, this is my fate.

Accept it ~

"I'm not finding excuses to avoid you

I'm juz telling myself a lie to forget you."

I thought this should be me?

but then is ok...

For your own happiness, you should do so...

You should be with him,

as long as he dare to say I'm not take caring you as well as him...

No wonder how much I did, I'm just a little bit of him.

I knew myself.

Maybe the chance for us had chance to you and him...

As the time keep going,

He is being more near you...

No~

Should be them...

And he is the one. =')

Last time,

our promise had gone.

No more le ~

I'm not the one and the last one.

SMKE Longman reference book...

remember this?

This is the one which let me think so much.

don't say I think too much,

just ask why I'm care... =')

But there is a no in everyone heart.

Then, I should follow as long as everyone will more happy x)

If you still look me as your fren, then I' will treat you as a best fren.

If you don't want me this fren then I will just tolf you,

Stranger is the best =)