*Trust*

Everytimes, anything happen between everyone.

trust again?
It's cause a lot problem.

To: the group of brother that always find me last time.
Between us, I don't know how much can we trust each other anymore.
Since, the day after athletic camp.
I feel rejected from you all.
I don't even know when should i appear between you all.
I just know you all will keep quiet when I came near the groups.

It's so hurt and pain.
you know feel that before too.
What do you feel if everytime you get this situation?

Rui, Sheng.
This is the end of us ?

I hope it is not but i feel that you two doesn't want me to join you two.
I feel that i'm just not brother of you two anymore.
two of you are the most friend of me when I'm in athletic.
The 1st friend of me in athletic is you, Sheng.
Now you choose to leave and i have to be facing everything alone.
You are the one who bring me in and now you left me thr.
You hate me? pls do tell me. xC
Rui, remember the day we met when form 2?
we met each and start battle dance until become same team and perform at the same stage.
How much you did in your dance and athletic??
I knew it. I appreciate it.
the moment we dancing together and satire each other high jump.
The moment I love the most.
But why,
now, we are just having distance.
It's further and further.
I just feel you dwn me as your brother anymore.

it's so hurt now.
x(

Shin,
who i am for you?

at school, you acting or truthly treat me with heart?
I doubt that. Do you know?
It doesn't let me feel good when I'm having suspect to someone.
I don't want to be a tool.
I hope to help you but not being a tool that neither here nor not.
when sms, you starting more cold to me now.
with other like Wong, him or other else.
You never forget to reply.
Did I say wrong this?

Maybe , the moment you read finish this.
you having anger now.
Maybe, I had say smtg wrong too.
Then, very sorry.
Everything I wrote is what I feel when facing you.
Everything 100% is wat i feel and let me feel so.
maybe it will lead to the end point of us.
Think about how you will feel when you facing same thing with me =']

TRUST
=C

BETRAY? DISTANCE? LIE?
I'm hurt xC

专心恋爱

我精神饱满 有一点紧张

你特别穿上我送的衬衫

为何你还在左顾右盼

话还来不及说完就遗忘

走在大街上 紧抓你手掌

竟然走散了 自己到处晃

电影才刚开场你说想

我陪你打电玩

我给的爱 比电影还精彩

你要好好善待 仔细听每句对白

我的爱 不是一个意外

你要随身携带 你不要就拿回来

我给的爱 比富翁还慷慨

请挥霍得痛快 把幸福都买回来

我的爱 只为你而存在

你别不理不睬给我 专心的恋爱

我会很勇敢 也会很心软

身骑白马的公主 偶尔会落难

如果你敢趁机偷懒

幸福不及格就给你好看

夜半的星光 我电话拜访

睡不着要你 哄我入梦乡

顺道明天约好吃饭

结果空等到傍晚

别再走开。。。

I'm trying to tell everyone I'm growth =]

Actually,
this few weeks I'm trying to let myself control every situation.
I don't mean to be rude to anyone.

I'm just trying to let it go every thing as usual.

To let everyone believe me,

I know i had to be better than last.

I try to endure everything that I can't endure.

Actually,

It seems like acting, right?

yuppy~ It is.

But,

attitude come 1st.

I have to change myself to be strong.

No one know how much you do when you trying to growth.

No one know how much had gone when you trying to pretend.

Endure can be a such good things.

but is has limit.

By the way,

letting go, it help me to release all my wound.

I cry to heal my wound.

How much tears in this month.

Not more than 4 times, I cry.

hahaha~

Actually, maybe I can say I'm stupid.

I'm not that good for her but he is that best for her xD

Don't know...She looked so happy & feel joy everyday.

As long as she not suffer as we together last time then it's okay for her in everything x)

Oh ya~

Girl, as you know every human being will drink vinegar.

So, just don't treat me as good as you wish to.

It may occurs a lot of impossible things to be possible.

Everyone got feelings and the other reason is I'm your X before.

So, just let your wall build back x')

Next, next,next!! xD

To growth,

how much i done??

Don't know~

How much my friends know??

No at all +_+

Nothing special for them, that's just my life.

Maybe,

I should let myself to lead xD

Time to study hard for the coming test.

Time to beat down you all.

Time to shine my result out now. xD

Hope the "F"eilou won't find me ba xP

To growth, learn to forgive xD

a beautiful mess =)

You've got the best of both worlds

You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,

And lift him back up again

You are strong but you're needy,

Humble but you're greedy

And based on your body language,

And shoddy cursive I've been reading

Your style is quite selective,

Though your mind is rather reckless

Well I guess it just suggests

That this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is

It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write

Kind of turn themselves into knives

And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction

But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear

'Cause here we are, here we are

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/jason_mraz/a_beautiful_mess.html ]

Although you were biased I love your advice

Your comebacks they're quick

And probably have to do with your insecurities

There's no shame in being crazy,

Depending on how you take these

Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess this is

It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say

Kind of turn themselves into blades

And kind and courteous is a life I've heard

But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear

Cause here we are, Here we are

Here we are [x7]

We're still here

What a beautiful mess this is

It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

Through timeless words, and priceless pictures

We'll fly like birds, out of this earth

And times they turn, and hearts disfigure

But that's no concern when we're wounded together

And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts

But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it.

Time for me wake up =)

"this night

i sit by myself

think a lot of thing

i dont know all my decision are right or wrong

i dont want to hurt anyone heart"

This how I know everything.

I understand what you really need.

You need a boy to accompany you.

He is better than me.

This is better then me, right?

It wasn't that bad.

It just pretending I'm a loser =)

I don't know how to appreciate it.

It's okay.

She get her own life,

she is happy.

That is enough for me.

I don't really mind who she with actually.

That is her choice.

She think she is right.

Then, that is. =)

"i dont know the reason why

i still feel hurt when he talk those thing to me

i still feel extreme happy when i chat with him

Sorry . . i just dont know how to forget"

This is not meaning a person.

There are two boys involve.

the hurt one maybe is me,

the another one is shee =)

It's doesn't matter.

She ady forget everything when he is accompanying her.

That's her medicine.

He can change tuition to acc her.

That's what they are.

She is happy,

so I'm okay. x)

指望

怕不怕被拒绝

怕不怕被省略

你怕不怕被沦落在宿命中妥协

当真爱宣告从缺

骄傲的玫瑰正一片一片枯萎

尽管你抱歉,忏悔

真心一旦坠跌就不能飞

别指望我谅解

别指望我体会

爱不是点头就能挽回

快乐或伤悲没什么分别

心碎到终点会迎刃而解

别指望我谅解

别指望我体会

爱不是注定要填你的缺

太多的是非

来不及杜绝

更不想依恋这残缺的美

残缺的迂回

x') =')

快乐或伤悲没有什么分别

Sincere before believe? OR Lie is lie ? ='D

On this day, God wants you to know

"that there are many truths,

and they all point to one source - God.

Do not spend energy arguing whose truth is righter,

just like all life springs forth from one source,

so are all truths but a reflection of God.

Accept another truth as another way of loving God."

Words?

The words?

The words you say to me?

Do you remember the words you say to me?

Do you really remember what the words you say to me?

Do you really still remember what are the words you say it to me as you told me that sincere than you're heart?

The words are easy to say but hardly to do it.

Am I right?

How could it be?

That should ask yourself one more time sincere =')

That what you told me once ='D

"If you ever love somebody put your hands up!"(JUST A DREAM)

There is always more than one choice...

That the only thing I Know =)

The boy, here the chance to take care her...

cherish it... =')

To be continue.......